Understanding-Evanescence lyrics

"You hold the answers deep within your own mind.Consciously, you've forgotten it.That's the way the human mind works.Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for usto entertain, we reject it.We erase it from our memories.But the imprint is always there."(Can't wash it all away)(Can't Wish it all away)(Can't hope it all away)(Can't cry it all away)The pain that grips youThe fear that binds youReleases life in meIn our mutualShame we hide our eyesTo blind them from the truthThat finds a way from who we arePlease don't be afraidWhen the darkness fades awayThe dawn will break the silenceScreaming in our heartsMy love for you still growsThis I do for youBefore I try to fight the truth my final time"We're supposed to try and be real.And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real."Can't wash it all awayCan't wish it all awayCan't cry it all awayCan't scratch it all awayLying beside youListening to you breatheThe life that flows inside of youBurns inside of meHold and speak to meOf love without a soundTell me you will live through thisAnd I will die for youCast me not awaySay you'll be with meFor I know I cannotBear it all alone"You're not alone, honey.""Never... Never."Can't fight it all awayCan't hope it all awayCan't scream it all awayIt just won't fade away, NoCan't wash it all awayCan't wish it all awayCan't cry it all awayCan't scratch it all away(Can't fight it all away)(Can't hope it all away)Can't scream it all awayOoh, it all awayOoh, it all away"But the imprint is always there. Nothing is ever really forgotten."
Please dont hate me,
Because Ill die if you do (x7)

All good things come to an end-Nelly Furtado lyrics

Honestly what will become of medon't like realityIt's way too clear to meBut really life is dailyWe are what we don't seeMissed everything daydreaming

[Chorus]Flames to dustLovers to friendsWhy do all good things come to an endFlames to dustLovers to friendsWhy do all good things come to an endcome to an end come to anWhy do all good things come to end?come to an end come to anWhy do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exitsWondering if I'll stayYoung and restlessLiving this way I stress lessI want to pull away when the dream diesThe pain sets in and I don't cryI only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dustLovers to friendsWhy do all good things come to an endFlames to dustLovers to friendsWhy do all good things come to an endcome to an end come to anWhy do all good things come to end?come to an end come to anWhy do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tuneBarking at the new moonHoping it would come soon so that they couldDogs were whistling a new tuneBarking at the new moonHoping it would come soon so that they couldDie die die die die

Flames to dustLovers to friendsWhy do all good things come to an endFlames to dustLovers to friendsWhy do all good things come to an endcome to an end come to anWhy do all good things come to end?come to an end come to anWhy do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moonWhistling a new tuneHoping it would come soonAnd the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went awayAnd the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping andthe rain forgot how to bring salvationthe dogs were barking at the new moonWhistling a new tuneHoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Good enough/The last song I'm wasting on you lyrics

Good enough
Under your spell again.I can't say no to you.Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.I can't say no to you.Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.Now I can't let go of this dream.I can't breathe but I feel...Good enough,I feel good enough for you.Drink up sweet decadence.I can't say no to you,And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.I can't say no to you.Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.Now I can't let go of this dream.Can't believe that I feel...Good enough,I feel good enough.It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.Pour real life down on me.'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.Am I good enough for you to love me too?So take care what you ask of me,'cause I can't say no.

The last song Im wasting on you
Sparkling grey,Through my own veins.Any more than a whisper,Any sudden movement of my heart.And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass awayJust get through this dayGive up your way, you could be anything,Give up my way, and lose myself, not todayThat's too much guilt to paySickened in the sunYou dare tell me you love meBut you held me down and screamed you wanted me to dieHoney you know, you know I'd never hurt you that wayYou're just so pretty in your painGive up my way, and I could be anythingI'll make my own wayWithout your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.So run, run, runAnd hate me, if it feels good.I can't hear your screams anymoreYou lied to meBut I'm older nowAnd I'm not buying babyDemanding my responseDon't bother breaking the door downI found my way outAnd you'll never hurt me again.

Like you lyrics

Stay low.Soft, dark, and dreamless,Far beneath my nightmares and loneliness.I hate me,For breathing without you.I don't want to feel anymore for you.Grieving for you,I'm not grieving for you.Nothing real love can't undo,And though I may have lost my way,All paths lead straight to you.I long to be like you,Lie cold in the ground like you.Halo,Blinding wall between us.Melt away and leave us alone again.Hiding, haunted somewhere out there.I believe our love can see us through in death.I long to be like you,Lie cold in the ground like you.There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,I'm coming for you.You're not alone,No matter what they told you, you're not alone.I'll be right beside you forevermore.I long to be like you, Lie cold in the ground like you did.There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you.And as we lay in silent bliss,I know you remember me.I long to be like you,Lie cold in the ground like you.There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,I'm coming for you.

Pushing me away-Linkin park lyrics

When I look into your eyes there nothing there to seeNothing but my own mistakes staring back at me[Backwards:]Everything has to endYou'll soon find that we're out of time left to watch it all unwindEverything falls apartEven the people who never frown eventually break downEverything has to endYou'll soon find that we're out of time left to watch in all unwindEverything falls apartEven the people who never frown eventually break downI've lied to youThis is the last smile that I'll fake for the sake of being with youEverything falls apart evenEven the people who never frown eventually break downEverything has to endYou'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwindThe sake of being with youEverything falls apartEven the people who never frown eventually break downThe sacrifice is never knowingWhy I stayWhen you just push awayNo matter what you seeYou're still so blind to me[Backwards:]Even the people who never frown eventually break downI've tried, like you, to do everything you wanted toThis is the last timeThat I'll take the blame for the sake of being with youEverything falls apartEven the people who never frown eventually break downThe sacrifice of hiding in a lieEverything has to endYou'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwindThe sacrifice is never knowingWhy I stayWhen you just push awayNo matter what you seeYou're still so blind to meReverse psychology is failing miserablyIt's so hard to be left all aloneTelling you is the only chance for meThere is nothing left but to turn and face youWhen I look into your eyes there nothing there to seeNothing but my own mistakes staring back at meAsking whyThe sacrifice of hiding in a lieThe sacrifice is never knowingWhy I stayWhen you just push awayNo matter what you seeYou're still so blind to meWhy I stayWhen you just push awayNo matter what you seeYou're still so blind to me

Thoughtless-Korn lyrics

All of my hate cannot be foundI will not be boundBy your thoughtless schemingNow, you can try to tear me downBeat me to the groundI will see you screamingThumbing through the pages of my fantasiesPushing all the mercy down, down, downWanna see you try to take a swing at meCome on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, groundWhy are you trying to make fun of me?You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?You take your turn lashing out at meI want you crying when you're bloody down in front of meYou, all of my hate cannot be foundI will not be boundBy your thoughtless schemingNow, you can try to tear me downBeat me to the groundI will see you screamingThumbing through the pages of my fantasiesI'm above you, smiling at your drown, drown, drownI wanna kill and rape you the way you raped meAnd I'll pull the trigger and you down, down, downWhy are you trying to make fun of me?You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?You take your turn lashing out at meI want you crying when you're bloody down in front of meYou, all of my hate cannot be foundI will not be boundBy your thoughtless schemingNow, you can try to tear me downBeat me to the groundI will see you screamingAll my friends are gone, they died. They all screamed, and cried gonna take you down [x4] all of my hate cannot be foundI will not be boundBy your thoughtless schemingNow, you can try to tear me downBeat me to the groundi will see you screamingNow, all of my hate cannot be foundI will not be boundBy your thoughtless schemingNow you can try to tear me downBeat me to the ground I will see you screaming

Where'd you go-Fort minor lyrics

"Where'd You Go?"Where'd you go?I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone.She said "Some days I feel like shit,Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,I get along but the trips always feel so long,And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,But when I pick up I don't have much to say,So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone.Where'd you go?I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone,Please come back home...You know the place where you used to live,Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,But now, you only stop by every once and a while,Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,You can call me if you find that you have something to say,And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone.Where'd you go?I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone,Please come back home...I want you to know it's a little fucked up,That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,It seems one thing has been true all along,You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,I guess I've had it with you and your career,When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...Where'd you go?I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone.Where'd you go?I miss you so,Seems like it's been forever,That you've been gone,Please come back home...Please come back home...Please come back home...Please come back home...Please come back home...

Is it wrong to eat meat?

You know, I've seen a lot of comments in the past about the morality of killing and eating animals. It's often taken for granted today because we don't even see the food we eat as animal, just grocery-market-packaged food waiting to be cooked. I've always eaten meat. I've always eaten vegetables. I eat to nourish my body and replenish my energy. The morality of killing to eat is natural. We need food to survive, so we go out and get it. Like a wolf, we prey upon the lives we can catch, eat its meat, and fill our stomachs. It's instinctual. It's animalistic. But you know what? Human beings are animalistic, instinctual creatures and any attempts to glorify humans as anything more in the *physical* sense is just pointless. We are what we are (I AM WHAT I AM).Spiritually, however, humans appear to be the most evolved group of life forms on this planet (maybe not on another planet, but at least this one). Not that humans are just so great, but that humans at least have the capabilities to become great. With this in mind, is it possible to transcend the animalistic, instinctual behaviors to such a degree as to question the morality in killing for food?Some would argue that we need to be on a vegetarian diet. But I think that even broccoli screams when you rip it from the ground. There have been studies that show plants are very aware of their environments. One in particular that comes to mind was an experiment that included two plants of the same species. One plant was hooked up to a polygraph machine, the other was not. Someone came into the room, destroyed the plant that was NOT hooked up to the polygraph, then observed the polygraph test. It was off the charts. Now - can you really tell me plants have no spirit? Vegan diets seem alright, except for a problem that you might be keeping yourself from very essential, neccesary nutrients to function correctly. Especially when you get into eating rotten fruits and the like.In essence, any time we take food in for the proper nutritional sustanance, a life form will have to submit and die. To look at it from a panantheist view - God is all things and more - there is no end to any of this life, just a transformation of one substance to another. One life absorbs the physical shell of another life, which continues the cycle. Only the physical is absorbed, however, as the spirit transcends the shell to find - in my belief - another shell to manifest.So - can we kill for food? My take - yes.Pointless gaming sports are cruel. Hunting "for sport" is the equivalent of murdering someone for "practice." You needlessly take the life of the animal. And fishing seems to be pretty popular "sport" too, where many people who are good at it just throw the fish back into the water. "They don't feel it, they have no nerves." Are you telling me that having a metal hook pierced into your cheek, pulled out of your natural environment from said hook-in-cheek to a completely alien atmosphere where no intake of breath can occur is...humane?I have no qualms with those who hunt for food. As long as they eat the food, it's justifiable. To kill for fun - that's when humanity escapes the situation.To give a quote from a great story teller:It's not what goes in a man's mouth that defiles him, but what comes out of his mouth.Or something to that effect.
Relatively speaking, meat eating itself is not in question here. There are obvious risks associated with eating too much meat, and advantages of eating at least SOME meat. Besides the obvious, the animal in question is usually dead and doesn't feel ANYTHING.The issue, instead, seems to be the inhumane treatment of animals that are bred for meat processing and the like. Brother Shawn Johnston has a very interesting post on this topic over at his blog site here.Confronted with these harsh realities, I can of course only go on the evidence in hand and conclude that these animals are treated rather savagely. I offer no form of excuse or defense for the types of behavior that some of these meat manufacturers institute in their business, and I am offended that there are not better rules and regulations in place to help better safeguard these kinds of atrocities.That being said, I'd like you to take a minute now and examine the things we do on a daily basis that has just as bad if not worse treatment for life. I'd like to put things in perspective.
Should we stop mowing our lawns? I can only imagine the grass screaming as a plague of moving mechanical parts comes to mutilate scores of fellow specimens.
Should we not bathe? The numbers that die in these forms of disinfection and contamination are incalculable, much less appetizing.
Should we cease to partake in eating fruits and vegetables? We know beyond a doubt that these plants are living creatures, and they are very possibly much more complex organisms than originally suggested.
Forget bathing, just stop cleaning altogether. The micro bacteria that exist are apart of an ecosystem that we obviously have no right putting to an end.
Should we also set up some form of punishment for those animals that eat meat? Obviously, they are not as advanced as we humans, but I believe I've seen some gruesome and terrible things on the Discovery Channel, and I cannot sit by idly and watch these crimes against nature occur.
Okay, okay, I'll admit. This was probably a wee bit exaggerated. No harm was intended by my sarcasm, and I hope none is taken. But I do insist that we view this as a normal process of nature.Not all butchers and meat processors are heartless scum. They don't exist solely to extract life - but to extract food. We should DEFINITELY punish those who are found to be heartlessly cruel to the animals in which they harbor, but a boycott on the meat industry altogether is equally unjust, and impossible.Which brings me back to my original point: naturally speaking, of course, meat intake is going to be existent amongst life forms. It is definitely natural to assume that is a part of the natural course for human consumption.
Now, if you'll excuse me, my chicken dinner is ready.Pax.

Perhaps...

Perhaps this blog is the work of a mad woman.Perhaps these articles are the musings of a lunatic.Perhaps these ideas are the dreams of men who never saw sanity, driven by their own desire to know themselves.Perhaps these are the latest steps in a constant process of evolution, slowly drawing the minds of those connected into a state of blissful insanity.Perhaps I've been coerced by an ideology that is entrancing, mind-warping, and addicting.Perhaps I don't know what I think I know.Perhaps I never knew, and I still don't.Perhaps no one else knows what I long to know.Perhaps there is nothing to know.Perhaps there is a winding road we all travel, born to walk this path, driven to finish, powerless when we have taken our last step.Perhaps this life is truly amazing.Perhaps life is meant to be a mystery forever.Perhaps that IS the mystery.Perhaps we've all got it wrong.Perhaps we've all got it right.Perhaps there's two sides to every coin.Perhaps there is intent behind this creation.Perhaps there is a mind behind that intent.Perhaps we are all apart of that mind.Perhaps we all have a part in that mind.Perhaps we are that mind.Perhaps when we know that mind, we can truly be blissful.Perhaps that's what makes us all crazy.Perhaps...that's gnosis.

Playing dominos:cause and effect

Playing dominos:cause and effect.
Okay, so we know the rule: for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.This is interesting to me.I know this is all "scientific" and sort of strays from the idea that a Creator-guy up in the sky has control of everything happening in the Universe, but that's okay...I'm a rebel.This notion passed through my mind actually at a weird point in my life - when I was beginning to question whether or not my beliefs made any sense, or whether I was just sucking something up that "sounded good." I was questioning the idea that there was a creator that created EVERYTHING. I let my emotions take control, and started feeling an intense amount of doubt and anxiety. What a rediculous idea. But then I thought about something.The idea came: cause and effect.Have you ever lined up a stack of dominos, and then just knocked one over? It's so fun to see how everything falls; how each piece touches another, and effects the next piece. It's interesting to see how elaborate you can make the rows that branch off and make more rows fall over. Sure, the eventual outcome is known from the start. But it's the process that captures you. It's how everything falls into place, and how beautiful it is when it happens.I thought the same when I was captured by this anxiety. Why would God even create? Here's your reason: all the pieces are lined up. The outcome is known. All the atoms and molecules are made and placed specifically in a tight, wound-up ball at the beginning of the universe - the beginning of time. So what happens? One domino is knocked over.The meaning of existence, therefore, seems to be to act as a domino. To participate in the entire picture, to play a vital role, and to be a work of beauty and entertainment in the entire game of existence.All the routes and revenues have been lined up. The outcome is known. The game seems pointless, I know - but it's so beautiful to see everything work out.If we can feel that way about dominos, how much more the Divine must feel about life!Wake yourself up, experience your gnosis - feel what it is to be apart of such a great experiment.

Prayer for peace

Oh, Holy WisdomGuide us through these horrible times.Keep us in your thoughts,And help us keep you in our hearts.Oh, Holy Mind,Reach us through our gnosis,Waken us with your touch,Release us from our egos.Allow our Christ to awaken,Embolden our yearns for peace.Shed your love on our spirits,So that we may shed our love on each other.Oh, Holy God,Allow us to see our own faults,Blind us to each other's differences,And help us break the grip of war.End the fighting.Stop the oppression.Bring peace on EarthAnd brotherhood towards all men.Amen.

Do you know?

Perhaps you are one of those remarkable people who experience an overpowering realization of the divinity of existence. You suddenly know that everything is divine and that within you lies an ocean of God. Will you know this all of the time and every day? No. You will crest and fall and submerge again into the mundane. The realization of divinity as the be-all and end-all, as the substance of your very self - that within which you live and move and have your being - does not dominate every day, although you wish it would. The ordinary world of aches and pains and approaching death, of trouble, temptiation, sin, stress, and loss seems to rule almost all the time. And yet, sometimes you can seize what you seek and see glory everywhere and know yourself to be divine. If you are one of those people, you are one with the Gnostics. You know what you truly are, that your are God, just as everyone else is

Right and wrong

Because I am a strict advocate of questioning reality and our relation to it, I felt a need to throw some words up here about it.Right and Wrong are concepts that humans have struggled with since the beginnings of civilization. As a matter of fact, you can almost define "civilization" as being a group of people with concepts of right and wrong. You can certainly bet that any civilization will view themselves (or ourselves) as having solid, concrete rules in place to ensure that right and wrong are no longer issues.While this is a good approach in theory, it nearly always falls short of its goals. Hence, a smaller group of people is usually assembled within the larger group to debate about topics and matters of right and wrong. After a period of time, what is considered right and wrong is usually adopted by society as a "norm." As people evolve towards a higher level of conscience, different approaches to right and wrong often change the society's point of view as to whether their "norm" is right or wrong. Examples:(a) SlaveryUp until a couple hundred years ago, slavery was widespread throughout the world. It was considered no problem at all to enlist the aid of a slave to do the work of whatever your heart desired. Since society has began questioning morality, slavery has since been outlawed in nearly all modern society.(b) PedophiliaUp until a couple hundred years ago, people would get married at 12 and 13 years of age. A woman was considered adult as soon as she hit her menstrual cycle. A boy was considered adult as soon as he went through puberty. Jewish law states that a boy is an adult at 12-years-old. Muhammed (in Islam) was actually married to a 9-year-old. Within the last couple of hundred years, however, society has viewed the ages and maturity levels of minors quite differently and changed its view on the morality of youthful relationships.(c) Legal AgeIt has been adopted as a norm for our youth today to figure that they are adults when they reach the age of 18. As they reach this age, more opportunities become available for these youths. Smoking, joining the military, getting married, etc. This was another non-existent issue until a couple hundred years ago when people reflected on the maturity of youths, and issued limits on their ages. While it is considered by society to accept a youth into adulthood at age 18, one can drive at age 16, and can't drink alcohol until age 21. Yet, society has accepted 18 as the "legal age."(d) MarriageSociety has made a collective approach to marriage as being between a man and a woman. While it is not quite clear where we derive this idea of marriage from, society is beginning to reflect what is right and wrong about marriage. Homosexuals are being considered to be given as much right as heterosexuals in marrital issues. Society is in the process of questioning the norm of its morality, and changing it. It has already done so with marriage a few times in history, as it used to be common place for one to marry more than one spouse and even at times marry one's sibling. This is considered immoral by today's standards.These are just a few examples. So what is it exactly that determines society's morality? Is it a collective conscience that decides what works and what doesn't?I believe that society is evolving. The more it evolves, the better its values towards preserving humanity and happiness come about. Morality is an evolutionary inevitability, and it is society that sets the rules. Is society always right? No. Will it eventually make amends with right and wrong? Sure. All the examples above support the idea that society is evolving towards a better standard of right and wrong in its morality.Whether it's always going to be right and wrong, we can only guess. But I do suggest that we, as individuals, always keep our minds open when thinking about these issues. Never let society alone tell you what is right and wrong. We each are able to determine morality.

Right mind,Right body

A theory has been held for some time that the root causes of physical illness start at the emotional, psychological level. This theory has some credance, and we can prove it rather easily using placebo tests in medical experiments. Usually, given enough thought and time, one can trace every ailment back to an emotional or stress-filled point. Someone who has a troubled childhood, for example, might grow up with all sorts of illnesses - or believe themselves into having them. You can usually see this in other people better than yourself.The mind works very mysteriously - the Greater Mind even more mysteriously. When one takes on stresses and burdens from the outside world, it can have very physcial effects on that person's body. As well, once a person accepts society's view of certain "symptoms" of problems, they might even end up convincing themselves that they have whatever illness they were looking at. By then, the mind takes over and the body is usually helpless to its dominance.Then again, seemingly miraculous medical marvels have come through when someone was convinced of their well-being. A sudden remission of cancer in certain patients has proven this idea, too.There are methods to help cleanse your mind of negativities, the root cause of these problems. We need only look at yoga and different other meditative practices to see these desired effects. But it is also through gnosis that one learns the limits of the body, and the limits that physical problems have on the psyche.This is not to say that you should start picking up raw meat and sticking it in your mouth. Nor should you dispense with the age-old ritual of washing your hands after a trip to the bathroom. Intelligence, not gullibility or faith, usually helps reason and intuition flow throughout and within.Focus your mind on the one inside, not on the world of physical substance. Finding that center within can bring great peace to the psyche, which in turn can lead to even more rewards: such as a calm mind.When the mind is right, so to is the body.

Baggage

What we carry with us determines in which dimension we dwell. If you carry a lot of sorrow, fear, and craving with you, then wherever you go you will always touch the world of suffering and hell. If you carry with you compassion, understanding, and freedom, then wherever you go you will touch the ultimate dimension, the kingdom of God.- Thich Nhat HanhNo Death, No Fear

Semantics

really is an eye-opener. Once getting to this point, I found out something truly extraordinary. It's not the semantics (life and all it's little grievances) that matter...it's only the truth. What would that be? Gnosis.To touch the inner core of your deeper self is to realize that bond with the rest of reality - the breath of life that flows within all of us, the matter that is compacted together to form "things," the actual reality of it all - and this in turn allows you a deeper respect and profound relationship with this reality. This is gnosis - it's what sets you upright. Gnosis calms the dust; allows you to focus your "eye" on the world.Keep your sights on the middle ground - don't get too worked up. Everything is as it should be - learn, live, play, drink, and eat. Realize that the north and the south are two in the same. Right and left hands are still on the same body. Up and down are just perspectives.In the end, the semantics don't matter...gnosis is what counts.

The stress of life

"Blessed are you who have prior knowledge of the stumbling blocks and who flee alien things. Blessed are you who are reviled and not esteemed on account of the love their lord has for them.Blessed are you who weep and are oppressed by those without hope, for you will be released from every bondage.Watch and pray that you not come to be in the flesh, but rather that you come forth from the bondage of the bitterness of this life. And as you pray, you will find rest, for you have left behind the suffering and the disgrace. For when you come forth from the suffering and passions of the body, you will receive rest from the good one, and you will reign with the king, you joined with him and he with you, from now on, for ever and ever. Amen."[The Book of Thomas the Contender]Nag Hammadi CodicesWatch and pray indeed.I've been overwhelmed lately by what seems like stockpiles of work. The stress has become something of an obstacle for me, not really being able to avoid it, but more or less trying to dodge the hits as they come.A moment of clarity is what I needed. I sat, I breathed, and then it came.Smile. Everyone can use a smile. It can dramatically change your mood, and everyone's mood around you.More smiles, less stress. Key to success, I tell you.

The tree of life

I saw and recognized a great natural allegory for the world today.A Tree.Startling revelation, glimpse of insight, a great view between the lines of reality - the tree.In it, I realized yet again meaning in this dualistic world. It was through the vision of this beautiful, naturally sculpted life form that I returned myself to the ineffiable.Of course, I'm back to tell you... ;-)The tree represents the fullness, the entirety of the world. The leaves are all people. The branches are all different beliefs and groups.On each branch, there is usually another branch, or a few smaller branches.Each of the large branches can represent a government, religion, or just a culture. The branches growing off of them represent divisions between these groups - such as Republican and Democrat.The realization that I had came in the vision of the tree. Each of us, no matter how we define our differences, view ourselves as being on a specific branch, surrounded by "like-minded" people - or leaves. However, the message here is important.We are all a part of the same tree

Plato's "Story of the cave"

This is a famous Gnostic story told by the Greek philosopher Plato.
Some prisoners have been held in a cave since childhood.They are all chained in such a manner as they can only stare straight ahead at the cave wall.A fire burns in the centre of the cave behind them,which casts shadows onto the walls.The shadows they can see are cast by various animals and plants that the jailers carry along a raised walkway on the other side of the fire.The prisoners play a games,naming the shadows, and when the jailors respond,the prisoners believe it is actually the shadows who are speaking.The prisoners,being unable to more or turn around,mistake the shadows and the voices for the only reality.
What would happen,asks Plato,if one of the prisoners was forced to stand up and turn around?He would be blinded by the fire,which he would at first take to be less real than the shadows to which he's been accustomed to for so long.And what if then the hapless prisoner were to be taken outside the cave altogether?The sunlight would have an even greater disorientating effect upon him.Eventually,once the prisoner has realised the enormity of what he has experienced,he will understand that the world he has lived in for so long was unreal,with the greater,true reality being above and beyond him.It is a reality to which he can gain access,but first he must be freed from his confinement.
The prisoner then goes back into the cave and tells the other prisoners about what he's seen and found out.But they believe they are better than him because he can no longer see the fine details in the shadows and they have not seen this "outer world" for themselves.That's basically the gist of the story.
The sad thing about today is that most people are prisoners in the shadows,just like in the story.These people will not even begin to believe anything they have not seen or experienced for themselves.The only way to escape this world and become free is to achieve Gnosis and to know who and what we are.
This mythic sensibility,which enabled the Gnostics to understand Plato,would have almost certainly informed their way of reading the old testament as well.Stories,the Gnostics understood-even biblical ones-do not have to have actually happened in order for them to have profound meaning for us all.As the gospel of Philip acknowledges,the truths of Gnosis have to be transformed into poetic and mythic language in order for us to understand them:
"Truth didn't come into the world naked but in types and images.Truth is received only that way.There is rebirth and its image.They must be reborn through image."

Gnosis is...

Gnosis Is......the touch of the Divine....the warmth inside....the breeze against your face....the pause of time....breath of the soul....light of the mind....peace in turmoil....clarity in fog....the dream of reality....a good night's kiss....a first love....the smell of a rose....a heartfelt apology....an experience....a knowledge....an awareness....Divine.

Letters from Ana

letter one
A long time ago...you started to think,about how great it would be if you were skinny like all the others.You could be anything you want...A model,who walks gracefully the runway.An actress who is still sexy... after all those years.
Or another actress who looks envogue no matter what she wears...Or maybe the empress of fashion...with connections, amazing clothes...and amazing hair.Or just a girl,beautiful girl with a smile on her face.
A girl who has many friends...and love.Even a child...You could be like a monument...stronger and tougher than anyone.You could be an angel...innoncent and fairy.
Mysterious...Transparent and fragile.A mythical creature...sometimes a little bit provocative.Sometimes sad,Once in a while just happy,but always...a symbol of perfection.Pure and absolute.
You could be anything...but you're not.
You aren't pretty,you aren't strong, you aren't brave
You have no friends,you have no love,you have nothing
ONLY FAT.
You are nobody
Lost in the middle of a sick world. Empty inside... Lonely... because you fell down... when you were thinking you're flying.
So lonely.
These secrets are walls that keep us alone...in the darkness.
I see no bravery in your eyes anymore,only sadness.
There is no way out...no hope.
You will never be...happy.
You will never be beautiful...as they are.
You will never be thin...enough.
You will never be perfect...
You will never be free...
Because I will always be with you...
Ana.

Letter two.
I'm not in the basement,I'm not under the bed,I'm not in the cupboard,I exist in you head. I will make you...run...cleanse...disappear.
I love you.
Let me guide you...should someone say you are a...skinny bitch...they are a liar...for you are a...fat bitch. ...You are pathetic.But I am your friend. ...Everyone else would let you down... All I ever wanted...was to make you happy.
"My love don't cost a thing". ...All I ask for...is some dedication...and a little loyalty.I could make you fly.I could make you whole.You are so...Goddamn lucky...that i found you.
"But I know what it's like to want to die,how it hurts to smile,how you try to fit in but you can't,and how you hurt yourself on the outside,to try to kill the thing on the inside..."

Self awareness

There are too many thoughts about societies all wrapped up together in this place called Earth.Self awareness is great.Call it fake or whatever the hell you want but I know what I am to this world .People who are said to be brave and courageous are usually just stupid,then they say later that they did it on purpose because theyre brave instead of by accident.Everything is so corrupt and so filled with opinions,little points of view and peoples own little agendas and schedules.This isn't a world anymore it's H.O.E.Self awareness is a wonderful thing.
People say it is immoral to follow others,they say be a leader.Well here's a news flash for you-everyone is a follower.Everyone who says they arent a follower and then acts different or dress different,they got that from something on tv,or in film or in life.How many your mum jokes are there?And how many do you think are original and not copied?I'll admit I follow sometimes but I try not to say I'm being original when Im not.
One big problem is people telling others what to do,think,say, act, and everything else.I'll do what you say if I feel like it,but denying me something just makes me want to that thing even more!Resist something and it persists,Persist something and it resists.
It's a fitting place we live in.All these standards and laws and great expectations are making people into robots.Even though they "might" think they aren't and try to deny it.Hey try this sometime,when someone askes you a question ask why.Eventually they will be stumped and can't answer anymore.That's because they only know what they need to know,in society and school, not real life science.These facts aren't important.What use are they?
These laws are just there to control us,to give certain people power over others.But in reality,everyone is the same in terms of power.Who are we to say what's right and wrong?I hate it when people say doing "wrong" things is inhumane.Well actually,most things labelled wrong in this world are our natural human instincts so in those terms I say they are humane.There is no such thing as right and wrong.I bet you don't even know why some things are labelled wrong.It's an attempt to control.
Morality only exists in society's created system.Don't forget that.This world is not real,we do not belong here.I want to ask you,who are you?.What is the point in this world,here on earth?We run around trying to "get further" physically and put all our effort into material things and pleasures when if we put even half of that into discovering ourselves then we could advance a lot more.I'm not saying stop all your material things but I don't think they should be,or are the whole focus of life.We are born and we race throughout life trying to "achieve" something and then we die just to have all our gains stripped away from us.
These are just my opinions and I am not trying to push you or force them on you in any way so please dont take offence.I dont hate you for believing what you believe,I could be wrong but its what I believe.

Songs

Tied down
Your indecision is what's dragging me down today.I don't know what is really inside your head.I'm not the only one who feels this way.There is so much of you that I do not know what I should say.I keep on coming around.Continue seeing it through.I don't know why I do the things I do I guess it's for you.It's not quite what I thought it would be here.(Looks like I'm on my own)Chorus:There is no trust.A broken life.I can't take too much more of this.Your hate designs a wasted life.I can't take too much more of thisIs not what I wanted(I want so much more)I don't know why you hate me(I don't know why)I wonder why I let you do this to me today.It happens everyday or so it just seems.I'm falling farther down than I would rather like me to be.The problem is you're standing there to push me.I will keep getting up now.And you'll keep pushing me down.How much of me will you destroy before I finally drown?You're not quite what I thought you would be here.(I hope you're on your own)Bridge:I hate this place. When can I leave?I can't get out. I've stopped breathing.

Hypocrisy
Seeing a new perspective I foundA person once was loved is hated nowI'm sorry to sound so hateful(it's your fault)Too bad you(lost your heart)I wish I would've known the real you before I had gone.Chorus:There's nothing you can do here.I'm sure to see it through.You won't see me fall.You won't see me die.This is the only way to cope with all your hatredinside.Look at you now.Pathetic and cold.It seems as though the tables turnedand now you'll do what you're told.I wonder what should I do?And what will they say?I can envision crowds speaking of you after you're gone.(He was such a good boy)(He did all the right things)If they had only known your middle name was hypocrisy.(At least he lived a good life)(At least he lived his life right)Too bad for you the words they say are nothing really but lies.It all was lies. Your life's a lie.I bet by now you thought you had beaten me.With no regrets I say to you...There's nothing you can do you might as well quit now.

Black days
An unspoken knowledge of prescription happiness.An everyday affair.With shattered dreams of being someone.It lost the whole meaning.Chorus:There's no cause.There's no want.I have no light for your black days.I don't knowwhat you want.I have no answers for your black days.A power larger than the sky.Stronger than both you and I.I'm holding nothing that will help you.I don't know why you sought out me for somethingI can't give you.

Burden of truth
So young yet she's found a good reason toAct as if there isn't an answer toHer actions hurt more than she wants them toI am not a person you can see (through)...this is not what I had wanted at all...Chorus:How can you exist knowing all the pain you've caused the rest?Going through your days like nothing's wrong.Keep an eye out, you will get yours, you will learn thatyour one chance was worth ignoring.I've seen first hand what all your words can do.With deaf ears I'd still hear the lies from you.A blind man could stare at her and see through.With no tongue I still would be laughing too.Is it your personality? Or just a hatred there for me?I'm asking honestly to see why are they idolizing you?...This time I know that you won't see me crawl...Chorus:How can you exist knowing all the pain you've caused the rest?Going through your days like nothing's wrong.Keep an eye out, you will get yours, you will learn thatyour one chance was worth ignoring.Bridge:No matter how hard you try you will never stop me from who I'llBe.Now is not my time to lay down and give in to.It's bad to love my enemies for all the strength they've givenme.This is a perfect ending to (the pointless lies you put meThrough)Chorus

My apology
I know I've done some things to you.I say some things I shouldn't too.Don't know why I act like I do.Maybe I need to get away.Still you continue to help me.Supported what I want to be.You even gave me eyes to see.Maybe you need to get away.Chorusmy apology for what I've done to youI'd take it back if I could.There's no excuse for why I've treated youso horribly it's on me.Is there some way I can repayor reverse hurtful words I say?So much time I let go to waste.Still you would never turn away.Can I turn all this time around?You never thought you'd hear the sound.I think I finally have found.What I had never seen before.My apology for what I've done to youI'd take it back if I could.There's no excuse for why I've treated youso horribly it's on me...It's on me...It's on me...It's on me...My apology for what I've done to youI'd take it back if I could.There's no excuse for why I've treated youso horribly it's on me

Painting the eyes
I am on my ownThere's no one in the roomThey've left me all aloneI don't know what to doI'm keeping track of timeSat thinking like those daysBut I'm just in a hazeI'm blinded by your corruptionYou never thought of meYou hate the things you seeYou'll never last because you thinkyou take away those thingsI know I can live without youWith all I know about youjust wish I never met you or never even knew your nameI don't know why I'm with youyes Still I will try for youWhat was that you sayCould never be that wayToday is your new dayShould I feel happy for youI can't believe my earsIt only took three yearsI'm glad you somehow think its my fault for the complicationsYou never took the timeTo get yourself in lineAnd take the chanceTo know those thingsWith open mindI'm better off without youNow I cannot seem to hear youI don't think I can take you should just walk awayI don't know why I'm with youyes still I will try for youNow I knowYou're so conceivingNow I knowYou'll never bring me downNow you knowYou're so conceivingNow we knowI'm done with you

This Goodbye
Breaking under from the pressure of a life that hasn't comeLosing sleep and wondering what you have left for meHow is this still happening and will it ever leave?The ending to my story isn't written yetI don't know what I will do If it goes on like thisChorus:If there has to be an answer, a judge between the twoI am sorry to say this goodbye to youMaybe in another life I wouldn't have to chooseThen I wouldn't have to say this goodbye to youNothing ever changes here and nothing ever willThere is no more strength and there is nothing left to fillI've exhausted every ounce of faith I have to giveThe ending to my story isn't written yetI know just what I will doIf it goes on like thisDo you remember the words that you said?And all the places that we planned to beThe last time your world seemed so obsolete to me and you

Fatherless
I am so afraid to face the day, it's over now.
Lying to myself in every way, so fragile now.
I wish I could leave without a trace, so far away,
Somewhere that won't remind me of that place,
Where you left me…
I wish you were here now so I could see the truth,
About what kind of person I'm not meant to be,
The fame, the blame, the shame, its all the remains,
I'll never be the same, never gonna be the same again.
Because you changed the world, forgot the way,
Remember as a kid, I had every aspiration to grow up like you,
It's true, who knew, that you'd abandon me,
I'll never be the same, never gonna be the same again.
I am so messed up now it's safe to say, its not over now,
Trying to start again another day, please tell me how.
I wish I could breathe another lie, that I could say,
Convince myself I have a better life, I just can't see.
I wish you were here now so I could see the truth,
About what kind of person I'm not meant to be,
The fame, the blame, the shame, its all the remains,
I'll never be the same, never gonna be the same again.
Because you changed the world, forgot the way,
Remember as a kid, I had every aspiration to grow up like you,
It's true, who knew, that you'd abandon me,
I'll never be the same, never gonna be the same again.
I wish I could breathe another lie, that I could say,
Convince myself I have a better lie, just can't see.
So soon we give up, we've got to keep what we can see,
I wouldn't take all the slack when you abandoned me.
But how could you run away since I was only too young to understand what ever's been left for me.
I wish you were here now so I could see the truth,
About what kind of person I'm not meant to be,
The fame, the blame, the shame, its all the remains,
I'll never be the same, never gonna be the same again.
I wish I could breathe another lie, that I could say,
Convince myself I have a better life, I just can't see.

Bipolar
It's the quiet after the storm,
Not a single thing will stay around me anymore.
Have to settle back to the floor,
And I am still standing.
I'm still standing, on my own…
The glasses only have emptied,
Nearly half their spell on the floor,
Between the cracks where the answer lies waiting,
But who's even asking?
Why take so long?
Why change, just takes a little time,
To change, just takes a little time,
To change, just takes a little time…
I'm still standing, on my own…
Why change, just takes a little time,
To change, just takes a little time,
To change, just takes a little time…
Sometimes it feels like I'm near the end,
It's just one of these changes,
There's still a sweetness to life that retains,
That's why I try to keep laughing.
Why take so long, why take a long time…

Beautiful emotion
When you need emotion there's a special place I have for you,
One that's been constructed from the fibres of you solitude.
When you need emotion,
Beautiful devotion,
Your impair devotion to the things that I would do for you.
You cannot take that feeling away from me,
You, I will turn my back on you.
Blooming in emotion from the silent rain that falls on me,
Drops that feel the ocean of your likeness in my memory,
When you need emotion,
Beautiful emotion,
Innocent emotion that your love decides to shine on me.
You cannot take that feeling away from me,
You, I will turn my back on you.
You always shut the sunshine off my face,
You are the failures in the rain.
If you live to see the ever after you'll know just how much its worth,
Underneath the candy coated surprise you didn't know.
You cannot take that feeling away from me,
You, I will turn my back on you.
You always shut the sunshine off my face,
You are the failures in the rain.

Further gone
Coming into life lived long before, without the warring rise.
From the top we'll take it all for credit, everything is so unfair.
In the dark we'll waste all our confusion, showing love for one who cares,
Satisfied to light the sense of reason in a system that sucks.
Falling apart, one piece at a time, each day, further gone away, what can I say?
Just pray.
I could never live without your love, not in this world.
Love that conquers everything, just love and nothing more.
All alone I'm torn apart now I can see your face,
Recognisers in control by letting go of the faith.
Captivated by every little secret, and every body is fading fast.
To the smallest of words that are misleading, a sullen quest that's so unchained.
Contradiction awaits the stars before you, the only ones that cannot change.
Contemplate the soul for more treasures in an effort to change.
Wrapped in chains, one piece at a time, each day, further gone away, what can I say?
Just pray.
I could never live without your love, not in this world.
Love that conquers everything, just love and nothing more.
In a system that's falling apart one small piece at a time,
Getting listened to and finding out just why I can't reach up that high.
I lean up to find all of the things that I cannot understand.
I could never live without your love, not in this world.
Love that conquers everything, just love and nothing more.
All alone I'm torn apart now I can see your face,
Recognisers in control by letting go of the faith.

No stone unturned
Like a little boy who has lost his way.
You're so gone just to recognize familiar advice to cut ahead,
Too bad to see that you had screamed and torn me all apart.
You, You could walk with me, like you did before.
Weeks before I stop to look around, just to see what's left of me,
Just to find that I was too scared to be me anymore.
All of the words that were spoken, and all the things left unsaid,
I still believe in the magic that you did.
As time goes, just to feel the lines in your saddened face.
You always go deeper every time, and even though you're a part of me,
You just can't see enough tears to walk away; you'll be the end of me.
You, you could hold my hand, like you did before.
Weeks before I stop to look around, just to see what's left of me,
Just a point that I was too scared to think myself, or love you anymore.
All of the words that were spoken, and all the things left unsaid,
I still believe in the magic that you did.
Now that the walls have been broken, and not a stone left unturned,
I could see that you meant what you said.
I still believe you meant what you said,
I still believe you meant what you said to me.
I still believe you meant what you said,
I still believe you mean what you said to me.
I still believe, I still believe.
All of the words that were spoken, and all the things left unsaid,
I still believe in the magic that you did.
Now that the walls have been broken, and not a stone left unturned,
I could see that you meant what you said.
I still believe you meant what you said,
I still believe you meant what you said to me.
I still believe you meant what you said,
I still believe you mean what you said to me.
I still believe, I still believe.

One last wish.
Did you ever think that you could reach over, above from inside?
Do you touch yourself from everything and pass over in one worthy lie?
It's no problem. Never show the obvious!
It's no problem. Never show the obvious!
It's no problem. Never stick up for the obvious!
It's no problem. Never show the obvious!
Do you pretend to have it all figured out, now just live for the moment?
Consider all that's left behind, that is one moment of time
If I could have just one last wish before I die, I'd give up all I have just to make everything that is wrong go right.
It's no problem. You never say the obvious
It's no problem. You never say the obvious
It's no problem. You never stick up for the obvious
It's no problem. You never say the obvious
You never say the obvious,
You never say the obvious.
You never stick up for the obvious,
You never show the obvious.
If I could have just one last wish before I die, I'd give up all I have just to make everything that is wrong go right.
If I could have just one last wish before I die, I'd give up all I have just to make everything that is wrong go right.

Shades of grey.
Can't find a reason to let go,
Move on onto the great unknown.
Wheres the balance between what is right,
I wanna know what is so wrong.
Just the guns of the truth, only time will tell, all the stories are falling to the side.
Why does everybody talk about these uneven resolves?Why doesn't he remember when his life was out of season?
Why do we have to cry for all the pain and suffering?
Why, I keep wondering why these shades of grey
Question a reason for so long,
Untold anarchy for the soul,
Black in mind is a concept, which will find you,
It all comes at a price and only time will tell when we agree the gift of life as well.
Why does everybody talk about these uneven resolves?Why doesn't he remember when his life was out of season?
Why do we have to cry for all the pain and suffering?
Why, I keep wondering why these shades of grey
Why does everybody talk about these uneven resolves?Why doesn't he remember when his life was out of season?
Why do we have to cry for all the pain and suffering?
Why, why?
Why, why, I can't find the way.
Why, just can't find the way,
Why, nobody told me the way,
It's coming over me.
Why, why, I can't find the way.
Why, just can't find the way,
Why, nobody told me the way,
It's coming over me.
It's coming over me.

Shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Your words like feathers, thrown into the breeze,
Never to receive, the effect it has on me.
The things you say like bullets, meddlings at me,
Overtaking me, persuading me.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes,
Shine, persuading me.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes, shine.
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Now you stand just above me, you push on that you boy,
What a different shade than the one before.
Now it all flows together, because you paid it line by line,
Struck a grain of time, take a second just to shine.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes,
Shine, just to shine.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes, shine.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes,
Shine
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes, shine.
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Take a second just to shine, shine, shine
Shine, shine, shine, shine
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes,
Shine, just to shine.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes, shine.
Just to shine.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes,
Shine, just to shine.
Take a shot and it goes right between my eyes, right between my eyes, shine.
Just to shine.

Without words
Here I am again, just staring at the page,
Trying to write the things I think I wanna say, now.
There's not a single stroke or word that comes to mind,
I cannot tell you the way I feel inside.
And maybe if I will find another way,
Or maybe I'll say too much and make you go away, no
Why can't you just look up and see it in my face,
See the things that I want you to see…
Here I am again just staring at your face,
Trying to say the things I know I wanna say, now.]
There's not a single word or thought that comes to mind,
I wish I could tell you the way I feel inside.
And maybe if I will find another way,
Or maybe I'll say too much and make you go away, no
Why can't you just look up and see it in my face,
See the things that I want you to see…
Why can't you just look at my face,
Why can't you just look at me face,
Why can't you just look at my, face!
And maybe if I will find another way,
Or maybe I'll say too much and make you go away, no
Why can't you just look up and see it in my face,
See the things that I want you to see…

My curse-Killswitch engage lyrics

My curse
I watched you walk awayHopeless, with nothing to sayI screen my eyesHoping to see you againThis is my curse (the longing)This is my curse (time)This is my curse (the yearning)This is my curseThere is love burning to find youWill you wait for me?Will you be here?Your silence haunts meBut I still hunger for youThis is my curse (the wanting)This is my curse (time)This is my curse (the needing)This is my curseThere is love burning to find youWill you wait for me?And still I wantAnd still I acheBut still I waitTo see you againDying, inside, these walls [2x]Can I see your face in these tears?In these tearsAnd I see your face...There is love [8x]

Pandora's aquarium-Tori Amos lyrics

PandoraPandora's aquariumShe dives for shellsWith her nautical nunsAnd thoughts you thoughtYou'd never tell
I am not asking you to believe in me Boy I think you're confusedI'm not Persephone foam can be dangerous with tape across my mouth theseThings you do I never asked you how
Line me up in single file with all yourGrievances Stare but I can taste you're still alive below the waste ripples come andRipples goAnd ripple back to me
PandoraPandora's aquariumShe dives for shellsWith her nautical nunsAnd thoughts you thoughtYou'd never tell
Line me up in single fileWith all you grievancesStare but I can tasteYou're still alive below the wasteRipples come and ripplesGo and ripple back to me
I am not asking you to believe inMe Boy I think you're confusedI'm not PersephoneShe's in New York somewhereChecking her accountsThe Lord of The Files wasDiagnosed as Sound

Eating disorder or diet?

Eating Disorder or Diet?
The most common element surrounding ALL Eating Disorders is the inherent presence of a low self esteem
Having an Eating Disorder is much more than just being on a diet. An Eating Disorder is an illness that permeates all aspects of each sufferer's life, is caused by a variety of emotional factors and influences, and has profound effects on the people suffering and their loved ones.
Dieting is about losing a little bit of weight in a healthy way.
Eating Disorders are about trying to make your whole life better through food and eating (or lack of).
Dieting is about doing something healthy for yourself.
Eating Disorders are about seeking approval and acceptance from everyone through negative attention.
Dieting is about losing a bit of weight and doing it healthfully.
Eating Disorders are about how life won't be good until a bit (or a lot) of weight is lost, and there's no concern for what kind of damage you do to yourself to get there.
Dieting is about losing some weight in a healthy way so how you feel on the outside will match how good you already feel on the inside.
Eating Disorders are about being convinced that your whole self-esteem is hinged on what you weigh and how you look.
Dieting is about attempting to control your weight a bit better.
Eating Disorders are about attempting to control your life and emotions through food/lack of food -- and are a huge neon sign saying "look how out of control I really feel"
Dieting is about losing some weight.
Eating Disorders are about everything going on in life -- stress, coping, pain, anger, acceptance, validation, confusion, fear -- cleverly (or not so cleverly) hidden behind phrases like "I'm just on a diet".

Take to the sky-Tori Amos lyrics

This house is like RussiaWith eyes cold and greyYou got me moving in a circleI dyed my hair red todayI just want a little passionTo hold me in the darkI know I've got some magicBuried deep in my heart yeah

But my priest saysYou ain't saving no soulsMy father saysYou ain't making any moneyMy doctor saysYou just took it to the limitAnd here I standWith this sword in my hand

You can say it one more timeWhat you don't likeLet me hear it one more time thenHave a seat while ITake to the sky

My heart is like the oceanIt gets in the waySo close to touching freedomThen I hear the guards call my name

But my priest saysYou ain't taking no soulsMy father saysYou ain't making any moneyMy doctor saysYou just took it to the limitAnd here I standWith this sword in my hand

You can say it one more timeWhat you don't likeLet me hear it one more time thenHave a seat while ITake to the sky

If you don't like me just a littleWhy do you hang around(There she goes againWearing those purple pantiesThere she goes againWearing her heartThere she goes again)Why do youTake it

You can say it one more timeYou can say it one more timeYou can say it one more timeWhat you don't likeLet me hear it one more time thenHave a seat while ITake to the sky

We are all loved

i just decided to post this here to show that even though we may not feel loved by our friends or family that there is always someone who will love us-God.Even if we cannot ever love him back,he will always love us.We will always be loved and that is an amazing thing.Even though we may fail,God's love is unconditional.Even thought we may feel rejected,alone,hated we are not.I love God so much for this.So don't give up,you are loved no matter what.
I love you

Hurt-Nine Inch Nails lyrics

I hurt myself todayTo see if i still feelI focus on the painThe only thing that's realThe needle tears a holeThe old familiar stingTry to kill it all awayBut i remember everythingWhat have i become?My sweetest friendEveryone i knowGoes away in the endYou could have it allMy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtI wear this crown of shitOn my liar's chairFull of broken thoughtsI cannot repairBeneath the stains of timeThe feelings disappearYou are someone elseI am still right hereWhat have i become?My sweetest friendEveryone i knowGoes away in the endYou could have it allMy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtIf i could start againA million miles awayI would keep myselfI would find a way

We are waging a civil war against ourselves

I abhor violence. I tend to look the other way when I am threatened. I tend to question how people can get so involved in conflict that the value of human life and well-being is diminished. I've seen people - reasonable, intelligent people - turn into ravaging maniacs because of anger, hatred, and bigotry. I've seen the world fight wars. I've seen how conflicts around the globe spark bigger conflicts, and how compromises turn into demands. I've seen moderation stamped out by intolerance, and activism drowned by ignorance. And so it continues. Our world fights with itself. Every war we fight is another civil war - humans fight humans; spirits fight spirits. There is no "us" and "them" - and people are often confused by that. The boundary lines we inhabit might determine the freedoms and prosperities we might receive, or decide your fate for you before you get a chance to breathe. Nothing is certain, anywhere you live.But we fight with ourselves again. The current world: Iraq? If the in-fighting would just cease, if people would just embrace their society instead of trying to destroy it, the "occupation" would end, and the struggle for freedom would begin with new friends. The fighting has to stop.Palestine elected terrorists to govern, and they got terrorism in their government. They have been engulfed in civil war, and it can only stop when people decide to make it stop. Hamas was elected to power not to govern Palestine, but to express discontent with Israel. Again, the hatred brews and the results have come from it: death, destruction, war. The fighting has to stop.Darfur has mass genocide. People are routinely, systematically raped. People die because they are of a different skin type. Mass, horrific, fighting. Blood, war, death; the fighting has to stop.Here at home, I pride myself for the good fortune I have been lucky enough to be awarded. But I recognize the problems. The two party system of government, coupled with an ever-increasing lame duck president, continue to display their own impotence to help solve these world problems. We've been immersed in our own failures, and every good intention is drowned by critics from past mistakes. Republican and Democrat fight to appear to have a better image, when the world fights wars. Politics over leadership. Who can make the other look worse, instead of how can we help each other. Squabbling over no-confidence votes and non-binding resolutions, when people fight wars both at home and abroad. People fight. The fighting has to stop.I believe military intervention can bring peace, and it is necessary in many situations. But the constant fighting has to stop. All we do is run around in a great circle of fighting; never ending, ceaseless fighting. People die, needlessly, every day - proving our own ineffectiveness to coexist. We are all apart of the same sea - surely one day the ocean will stop trying to divide itself.

The problems with socialism

It seems to me that there is this growing infatuation with Socialism these days. The very heart of it attracts those compassionate people into believing that this is the object of civilized society. I see it growing in political popularity. I see it growing in religious circles. I see it becoming a welcomed member of society.Socialism is basically a form of government that takes all the profits of a society and spreads it equally across its citizens. It looks real good on paper: no one is richer than anyone else; no one goes without a home; everyone has equal access to the goods of a society; everyone has exactly what they need provided for them; everyone is treated and respected equally.As I said, this all sounds great on paper. Problem is, in action, the deeds fall short of the intention. Here are my issues with Socialism:1. No CompetitionIn socialism, all classes of people have exactly the same wealth. No one has more than their neighbor. What this does is create a sense of security and comfort. When someone works harder than another person, the exact same profit is earned (in whatever capacity we call "profit"). Therefore, there is really no need to work harder than another. If one person carries more of the burden, or more responsibility - like a manager of a plant, or the head of a business - there is really no incentive to carry the needs of that particular position to its peak level. You have thus created a plateau for business achievement.2. Someone always takes over.Stalin. Chairman Mao. Fidel Castro. Hugo Chavez. Hillary Clinton. There's always someone ready to take the lead and decide what's best for everyone else. There is a pinnacle; a peak representative of the society willing to bear the "brunt" of the blows for the "good of society." In other words, it turns into a dictatorship very quickly. With society in control of all the wealth and distribution thereof, the head of that society is the one in charge of deciding how it goes out. You have just created a despot. It might work out for a generation, maybe two, but someone will be in charge that doesn't want to give up power. It's human nature. Not spiritual nature - human nature. There are smooth talkers, and fast walkers. Look how our buddy Hugo Chavez is turning his democratic Venezuela into a dictatorship systematically. As long as the right procedure is followed, it can be done. When the government is in charge, there's no stopping the government's control.3. It has not worked anywhere it has been tried.The Soviet Union; Cuba; Communist China; North Korea; Vietnam - not one of these countries has succeeded without millions of deaths, outrageous numbers of starving citizens, or they just haven't succeeded at all. Stalin massacred his own people. So did Chairman Mao. Kim Jong Il allows his citizens to starve while he further isolates his country. Vietnam had millions of its citizens killed when the United States withdrew from its efforts to halt the spread of Communism. Cuba has refugees leaving still to this day. China is only just now viewing the potential wealth in modeling its economy along more capitalist forms. Socialism doesn't work. Not in the forms that have been tried, and not in the forms that will be developed.Human society, as a whole, cannot hold up in this dream of a Utopia. I'll admit it again - all these ideas about Socialism sound absolutely wonderful. But they have always fell short in action. The United States is the freest, wealthiest, most powerful country in the world - and it's been around for less than two and a half centuries. I credit this to an absolutely amazingly written constitution above all else; and an amazing system for its economy to continually better itself. Free trade, capitalist corporate and business models, and a drive to be better for your own sake. In the place, you can become as wealthy as you can figure out how to become. All you have to do is strive to be better. I fear and rue the day that Socialism is found to be the absolute model of perfection. It will be on that day that people hand over that which gives them the right to believe what they believe; that which gives them the right to be what they want to be; that which gives them the right to decide for themselves how far they wish to succeed in life; that which gives them the right to practice whatever religion, notion, or idea comes to their mind.That thing I refer to is freedom. Keep government out of your life. Personal freedom is all that counts in this world.

Attack of the conscience

It is thus: when one feels the experience of gnosis, it is an overwhelming sense of joy, love, confusion, and triumph. And with it, when one returns to our lively, coffee-driven, baby goo world, we find ourselves immersed in the same old junk we were before: life's problems.However, the big difference is not the way life comes at you; the big change in life is how you get back with reality. There is a shift in consciousness; a change in course; a new direction for your responses to flow. It's clarity. We can question even the most basic of moral rules to a fault, and actually understand that sometimes even what's considered "right" can actually be wrong. This is the stage where your conscience is pounding in your head. You've awoke the sleeping giant.No more can you sit idly by and float through the primordial ooze. No more can you see harm being done to others, or sit and watch another do harm to themselves. No more can you bear witness to injustice and turn the blind eye. It doesn't make you superman to be this aware - just makes you superconscious.Even the smallest life has meaning: I've noted before that my mum gets very irritated when I argue with her about killing the spider running across the floor. And you know you've got issues when you say a prayer for a fruit fly.But these are the examples of the underlying resonance within each of us. There is a sleeping spark within that opens our eyes to the wonderful and beautiful creations throughout reality. We see that there is not so much black and white in the world: it's all confused, collapsing in on itself.But the glimmer of hope is within us all. The bond between the saint and the sinner is unnoticeable, but unbreakable. We are all life - and that life's purpose is to recognize it and respect it .Gnosis is the freedom you are longing for.

You're almost there...Don't stop now...

Anytime you start to try something new, it can be exciting and challenging. Especially when, at first, everything seems to be a great combination with your spirit.This is contemporary Gnosticism. Many are attracted to its elements because the word is used so much by so many people. This is another reason it's entirely difficult to ground down an exact definition and outline for modern Gnosticism. Many people are attracted to it from different sources - notably those who have actually misused the word Gnosticism when representing themselves.One of the scary things about entering into something new is that when it's not exactly what you were expecting, we retreat. I've seen many people who are attracted to Gnosticism because they've heard of Sylvia Browne or Samual Woer using the word to describe their particual set of beliefs. Once they learn how laughable their brand really is compared to true contemporary Gnosticism, they retreat back into their "safe zone," for fear that they have absolutely no idea what is going on - like they will be judged for being crazy.This should never be the case. I was actually initially attracted to Gnosticism through Sylvia Browne's words, which was my direct quest to seek a higher knowledge of the Divine. As I explored the religion further, I realized (a) how different it really was from what Sylvia said it was, and (b) how in love with it I really was.Many don't initially understand the many layers of interpretation that follow through the myths and allegories of Gnostic folklore. And trust me, there are plenty of places on the web and through scholarship that claim all sorts of obscene things about the Gnostic religion and its practices, but at the core root of it, there are all these different routes the knowledge can and does go. It is more broad than people have ever really given it credit for, and I think that's a travesty. Gnosticism is more than a religion with a set of beliefs. It's more than a liturgy. It's more than the myths that they use to teach. It's more than the word itself.It's not UFO worship, or some sex cult, or some occultic pagan group of Satan worshippers. It's figurehead is not some psychic lady that can tell you what your grandmother is doing in Heaven. It IS the active, consistant approach to seeking out gnosis, and using that particular experience by applying it to life. The gnosis is what frees us.All else is conjecture, and should not taint the purity of gnosis.

Jesus-To be or not to be

I guess this is a long time coming, because I feel compelled to write about it.I've noticed in many, many places that are gnostic-oriented that the existence of a physical Jesus is hotly debated, and more times than not, usually considered to be false. While all of these forums allow you a freedom to believe whichever you're most comfortable with, it feels like the "endorsed" message is that there was no physical Jesus.Let me say: this post is not intended to debate the existence of Jesus.I'm feeling a growing concern, however, that this message is being used far too much to be of any effectiveness. I stand behind and encourage creative thought and exploration, and this is certainly a subject that is both valid and neccesary to pursue in order to find roots and meanings behind esoteric messages and myths. But the Jesus myth as it exists today is an important bridge for those entering into a more spiritual form of Christianity: Gnositicism.I caution those that are so quick to extend their opinions on the existence of a physical Jesus, because I believe it is out of personal spite that this subject is usually explored; a way to rebel against the establishment - the big "THEM" that is already called "Christianity."I have always viewed Gnosticism as a very esoteric, meaningful, spiritual, and unique part of a movement that has often been called "Christianity" (though there are differences). Many people who seem to "cuddle" with Gnosticism can do so because it allows them the luxury of exploring their deeper spiritual needs, and yet not abandon completely the childhood religion that they've grown up with. To this end, the importance of having a common tie between the two is very defined. The myth of Jesus is an important bridge for people to cross from the Christianity of old into Gnosticism.For the gnostic, I believe it would be very detrimental to the movement to automatically discount the existence of a physical Jesus because it would thereby sever the tie with the curious Christian, and perhaps might make that particular seeker retreat back into his/her own particular form of error. The thought of "no Jesus" for someone trying to pursue an esoteric religion that they have little knowledge of might just be enough for someone who has grown around the idea of a physical Jesus to take two steps back from their own spiritual progress.In no way do I dispute that this is a valid topic to bring to people's attention, and we should always explore the route to knowledge wherever that leads us. But we must also, as gnostics, understand that accepting a defined "position" on this particular subject could not only hurt the growth and developement of the gnostic movement, but it can also affect the seeker that is on the path to their own particular gnosis. Too many times have I seen those in a "priestly" role outright declare that there "is no physical Jesus" because of a lack of physical evidence. This is a position that, in my opinion, should be avoided if one is honor-bound to assist the spiritual seeker attain gnosis. Jesus has become an icon in the spiritual world. One can believe in a physical, spiritual, mythological, or allegorical Jesus; but one must conclude that none of these can be advertised exclusively be a body of spiritual seekers on a quest to expand both our minds and the minds of those willing to listen. Besides, I hear Jesus was a cool guy.

Born with freedom

Freedom is a concept many in Western society are familiar with. Put into to definition restraints, "freedom" can be described as "living outside of slavery." Ghandi described freedom as an inner peace. Then there are others - the many people in the world that view freedom as a protective force: a positive idea that provides happiness and stability.In Western society, freedom is something you're born with. There is no question; it's an inalienable right. God-given. Handed on a platter for even the most demented, sick, and twisted people to abuse. We don't question its existence because we witness this freedom everyday (though it's not noticed).We can openly criticize our government and our leaders. We can decide whether we should go to work or stay at home. We decide what work to go to. We decide what mate we wish to wed. We decide what we define ourselves as being. We simply ARE.This, as strange as it may seem, is a very alien idea in some parts of the world. Russia and China, for example, require news agencies to belong to the government for the express sole reason of censoring its media (pretty handy, if you ask me, and probably why Putin's approval rating is so high). In some parts of the world, women are still second-class citizens with no recognized rights to, well...anything. Some parts of the world seem almost completely abandoned to the entire concept of "freedom." Iraq and Afgahnistan are two place where this was true. The ideas of "freedom" and "liberty" are no doubt unfamiliar concepts to these peoples, and a certain amount of cultural adjustment is in transition. Many are opposed to this adjustment because many fear what they do not understand. Fear can also keep a mind closed, and closed minds are very difficult to persuade.Then there are other problems - different sub-groups vying for power all over the place. Those few that have a desire to rule with "an iron fist" are just as steadfast in their determination to keep the established norm of obedience and submission on the mass population. These few have even gained support from those that wish for the illusion of security. The many that seek freedom are, by now, assuredly, fearful to speak against such groups. It looks simple from the other side of the world. The thought is "if they would just stop fighting, we could pull our troops out." Naive as it may be, it is an easy concept for our instant coffee minds to warm up to, and the problem then turns to impatience and frustration when the scene doesn't become the paradise that we think it should be.It's depressing. It's disheartening. It's loathesome. The bloodshed and the violence from those people that need this freedom (but don't understand its limitless boundaries) is ultimately coming under the bigger spotlight. The idea of freedom is vanishing to be replaced with the illusion of security. There is no such thing as "stable" and "secure." The US is supposed to be both of these, and yet people die of senseless violence in this country every day.We should allow the idea of freedom to blossom within this culture's youngest minds. The children, ultimately, are going to be the deciding factors in this struggle. For within their naive minds, the idea of freedom can be planted, and as they grow, not knowing any other way to be, freedom flourishes for them.As I look for the end of this struggle, I feel that it will be passed on to my children's generation. Not because some president started a war with intent on stealing oil reserves (rediculous); but because of default - it's going to take that long to raise a generation into modern civility. Our children will become the ultimate decision makers in this conflict, because the world that we give birth to now is for them. We do not fight an army. We fight no government. We fight no country. It's fascism that we fight. It's intolerance that we fight. And it's freedom that we hold dear to our hearts, and we wish to impress that on people across the globe. If that is wrong, then I will be wrong.

The problem with labels

We search for our identity. That's a fact of life. We seek to learn about ourselves - why and how we are the way we are - and this is the ultimate goal for everyone (or at least it should be).That identity can be sought outside of ourselves, and shaped by ideologies on the outside of our being. The true identity is always inside, the Christ within each of us - whether we look for it or not.You will probably see that no matter how different we are on the outside, our center-self is virtually identical to each other - like knots on a rope. It's a connection to that center that is called "gnosis."On the outside, however, things are not so easy. We struggle to identify with society, the lesser self - the PUBLIC self (it was called "the mob" in Rome...go figure). The self is then bent and formed, growing in and around each society and its own unique norms and processes. We define ourselves growing into these societies by different labels, such as "rich" or "poor", "middle-class", "democrat" or "republican", or even "Jewish" or "Christian." No matter what the label, it's usually determined by how we interact with each group we live our life around, and how they in turn react to our own impressions on their personalities.The problem here is that we sometimes let these outside forces define who we are, instead of questioning why we believe something for ourself. I am, of course, guilty of this just like most others are. But what we all must do is analyze what it is that we hold dear, why we have the values that we have, and what we can do to better the interaction of outside principles on our own psyche.Labels can be important, too, because they allow a conscousness to feel welcomed. I've touched on this in another post, but it's still to be held true. We must know WHY we are the way we are, and not just allow society to tell us what and why to think. I am fully aware that people disagree with my opinions on things, but we all must know that we come from the same identical root. My opinions don't make me better or smarter than anyone, and neither do anyone else's make them the same. We search for our identity all our lives within society. If we only searched within ourselves, we might not be so restricted as a society. When will we stop thinking of ourselves as different people and start thinking of ourselves as one?

Salvation through differences

- ...Such is the very death of the created being. We die to the extent that we fail to discriminate. For this reason the natural impulse of the created being is directed toward differentiation and toward the struggle against the ancient, pernicious state of sameness. The natural tendency is called Principium Individuationis (Principal of Individuation). This principle is indeed the essence of every created being. From these things you may readily recognize why the undifferentiated principle and lack of discrimination are all a great danger to created beings. For this reason we must be able to distinguish the qualities of the Pleroma. Its qualities are the PAIRS OF OPPOSITES, such as the effective and the ineffectivefullness and emptinessthe living and the deaddifference and samenesslight and darkhot and coldenergy and mattertime and spacegood and evilthe beautiful and the uglythe one and the manyand so forth.
The pairs of opposites are the qualities of the Pleroma: they are also in reality non-existent because they cancel each other out. Since we ourselves are the Pleroma, we also have these qualities present within us; inasmuch as the foundation of our being is differentiation, we possess these qualities in the name and under the sign of differentiation, which means:
First--that the qualities are in us differentiated from each other, and they are separated from each other, and thus they do not cancel each other out, rather they are in action. It is thus that we are the victims of the pairs of opposites. For in us the Pleroma is rent in two.
Second--the qualities belong to the Pleroma, and we can and should partake of them only in the name and under the sign of differentiation. We must separate ourselves from these qualities. In the Pleroma they cancel each other out; in us they do not. But if we know how to know ourselves as being apart from the pairs of opposites, then we have attained to salvation. -
[The Seven Sermons of the Dead]
- Carl Gustav Jung

Why do it right when you can do it twice?

Laziness irritates me to no end.I can't understand why someone would want to take an "easy way out" when it's usually the path that leads them to have to re-do something.Far as I'm concerned, a job's not worth doing if it's not worth doing right. I hate trying to rush through something; I'd rather take my time and make sure it's right. Of course I don't always succeed, but I seem to have a higher success rate when I do things right.With our "instant coffee" culture today, this often presents a problem for anyone trying to "keep up" with the rest of the world. I've made it a big effort on this blog to speak out against rushing oneself, as this is often what leads to certain failure.Take it from someone who knows - doing a task that you don't want to do can be quite annoying. But having to do the task twice is completely stupid.Take your time, do it right, and be finished. The same applies to the spirit. Don't be quick to rush to beliefs and revelations. Slow down, absorb, and relax. Then do it again.

Living every moment

As I looked at my watch about 10 minutes before I got to leave school, I realized that I invest too much time into wishing away MY time.I think "it's only a few more minutes" and then try to keep myself occupied so that "time will fly" by and I won't even notice.This is exactly what I DON'T need to do. This is the "rush" that gets people into problems. It's the little moments in life that we live through that aren't always pleasant that we must also pay attention to. These moments, when they've all passed, will be looked upon as "wastes of time." Use every minute you can for awareness. Live in the now, the present, with full realization. You never know what can hit you when you're not paying attention. Of course, you never know what opportunites you can miss when you're not focused either. Good things don't happen to those who wait. Good things happen to those who pay attention.

Anti-Church

I've just seen it so many times. A voice out of no where, criticising institutional ecclesiastics. It hurts sometimes, to see so much anger aimed at a formless body of people. It hurts, too, because these institutions are formed specifically for these types of people.The whole idea behind ecclesiastics is to provide a sense of community to the mass of those who feel "alone." It creates an establishment in which communion with either the Divine or other people of the same faith (or both). Ecclesiastics are also there in order to nurture the individual, create a stable environment for the spirit, and cultivate the inner feeling of "good" that is within.When I see so much anti-ecclesia from people who seem so hell-bent on being rebels, it saddens me to no end. These few have had problems usually within another institution, one that hasn't suited their needs, and have chosen instead to push away all other institutions.I've also seen some who seem to carry a grudge with a specific establishment, mainly because either the church didn't or couldn't help them (I say "the church" meaning "church" in general).For instance: there are many who would point out the inadeqacies of the Catholic church. By far, there are no small numbers in the column of negatives that the Catholic church has created. Some lash out against this group, claiming that their beliefs are absurd and rediculous. There are those of a persuasion that believe the Catholic church today is the same institution that called for the Crusades and the same one that began the Inquisition. Fact of the matter is, this is not the same church. It's grown - evolved, if you will. And there are countless people who are actually aided by the Catholic church and it's influence. The good is never told, nor is it emphasized - only the bad.It's the same story with our dear Gnostic church. There are so many out in the world that have been hurt by their previous institutions, or just don't trust an established hierarchy with their spiritual developement. So instead of working to improve their ties, they work against it.There are many who pursue a spiritual path by themselves. That is honorable, as we all must make an individual struggle to improve our individual spirit. But to rebel against an establishment that has a system of proven effectiveness is wrong. It's just wrong.If I thought Gnosis wasn't suited for my needs then I wouldn't stick with it,I'd find something else that seemed right for me.Never would I insult and throw stones at the institution that isn't able to help. To those that would, maybe self-examination is appropriate in order to further your spiritual needs. Maybe, maybe, it's not the institution's fault.
As Jesus said,"May the person who has done nothing wrong throw the first stone."

Failure and Frustration

I set out to complete a task, and the first step I have failed. Some might not see it as such; some might be inclined to see it as just the first attempt, but I see it as failure. The task at hand is not as easy as I thought. I forgot myself, thinking I'm smarter than most and already possess the "truth" so that I might have an easy ride ahead of me. I am humbled, blindly falling back into my own recognition, knowing that I truly do not know.And yet, I still feel the spark. I still feel the burning desire. I have to get up. I have to do it again. Do I want to? No. Yes. Does it matter? I failed my first task because I overlooked the simplicity of it. I did not look with eyes open. And yet, I am driven. I am not forced, but drawn. If it takes 478 tries, and I still fail - then I will hope for another chance. And another.It is the yearning desire to reach my goal that pulls me. It is inside me to move. I fell the first time I walked. But I press on. I will succeed.
We will all Succeed,no matter how long it takes and what it takes.

On the use of mind altering drugs

I used to think this was an easy topic. Then, I grew up.Now I know I'm not one to speak about this what with my past experiences but the issue is not on whether these drugs should be used but in whether they should be used for enlightenment purposes.
The topic of drugs, specifically Marijuana and Lysergic Acid Diethylamide (a.k.a. LSD or "acid") seems to be creating more controversy, especially over the last few months. While this has even come under recent discussion in some Gnostic forums, I felt the need to explore the subject a little to find out if there's more to it than just acceptance of authorative norms.It's a touchy subject among some, particularly the younger crowd (or the more liberal). However, I think there are more complex issues at hand than just the particular freedom to use any mind altering substance one can aquire. For some, the idea has come into play that using said drugs can actually help with the elevation of the consciousness. This seems like a valid argument, especially since "mind-altering" states can create the illusion of being in a static state of mind.My case is this: it IS an illusion. The problem with these drugs is not that it helps some "attain" enlightenment by "centering" their thoughts, the problem is instead that it creates the illusion of illuminary thought, and the dependence on a physical substance to return to the previously "aquired" state of mind. There is no independence of experience, meaning that it is all dependant on a material substance to achieve the experience.Put it to the point: the drug is of the "world of forms" and creates no real "enlightenment." It's the body's way of compensating for chemical stimulation that is set into motion. For me, this chemical stimulation can actually cause a blockade of the actual experience, and create a resistence to the real, spiritual experience of gnosis through a lesser known Archon - Addiction.This is not to say that certain people in the past have not used such methods to receive many great poetic, visionary, artistic expressions. The Beatles come to mind to prove this idea. But to rely on material substance as the sole form of experience is to lose focus on what's real - spiritual gnosis.Divine Communion can be experienced with a completely lucid state of mind. Dependancy on material substances creates a rift between the spiritual and physical that is almost impossible to overcome. The spiritual truth should be allowed to flow through the sober mind, because the intake and processing of this experience is what matters post-gnosis. To have judgemental impairment on this gnosis is to deny yourself the reality of the experience.You only see what you want to see with the drugs,even if you don't know it at the time.Maybe I'm wrong though.

Instant oatmeal,Instand coffee,Instant Gnosis

Something I'm encountering from those just beginning the spiritual path is a feeling of impatience. I want enlightenment now. They work, intellectualize, compute information, write essays, create understandings, and even believe it's there...but they just lack the experience.In short, it's impatience they struggle with. This is not through any fault of theirs, it's just a result of society. Pressed on by today's standard of fast food, instant coffee, grocery store express lanes, and everything in between, these poor fellows just don't stand a chance while remaining in this mindset.The problem seems to be rationalization. Too much intellectual work, not enough patience with emotional control.In order to proceed, stop pushing, start relaxing, and keep waiting. Impatience is another archon that prevents spiritual maturity. To force something on a rational level is to miss something on the experiential side. The way to the other side of the bridge is through emotional control. Balance yourself, your emotions, and above all else...be patient. Where the will is, the way follows.Peace.

Thunder:The perfect mind

Thunder:The perfect mind
From The Thunder: Perfect MindI was sent forth from the power, and I have come to those who reflectupon me, and I have been found among those who seek after me. Look upon me, you who reflect upon me, and you hearers, hear me. You who are waiting for me,take me to yourselves. And do not banish me from your sight. And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing. Do not be ignorant of me anywhereor any time. Be on your guard! Do not be ignorant of me. For I am the first and the last. I am the honored one andthe scorned one. I am the whore and the holy one. I am the wife and the virgin. I am the mother and the daughter. I am the members of my mother. I am the barren one and many are her sons. I am she whose wedding is great and Ihave not taken a husband. I am the midwife and she who does not bear. I am the solace of my labor pains. I am the bride and the bridegroom, and it is myhusband who begot me. I am the mother of my father and the sister of my husbandand he is my offspring I am the slave of him that prepared me. I am the ruler ofmy offspring, but he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday. Andhe is my offspring in due time and my power is from him. I am the staff of hispower in his youth, and he is the rod of my old age and whatever he wills,happens to me. I am the silence that is incomprehensible and the idea whoseremembrance is frequent. I am the voice whose sound is manifold and the wordwhose appearance is multiple. I am the utterance of myname.

Saviour returned

Molded to my heartIs the sound of your sight.I hear your touchAnd I feel your life.I'm sober againOnce so drunken before.Ignorance left me shallowFear left my spirit poor.Light shown throughAnd the dark was smothered.Shades of gray coloredClarity was recovered.Given the truthA ray of hope shinesKnowledge of selfMy path now unwinds.My spirit is pulsingFilled with rejoiceLonging to returnAnd give Silence a voice.I recovered the questNow knowing the wayThe savior is savedThere will be no delay.Seekers will be soughtKnowledge revealedKnowing the way forwardHerding sheep to the field.Dependent on meThe rest of the foldSpirits of lightThey await truth to be told.Awake sleeping souls!It's time to discernAll must find the lostThe guide has returned.I will lead you to HimEverlasting delightFor my yoke is easyAnd my burden is light.

I am

And Moses said unto God, Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel, and shall say unto them, The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you; and they shall say to me, What is his name? what shall I say unto them?And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you.(Exodus 3:13-14)I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.(Revelations 22:13)For I am the first and the last.I am the honored one and the scorned one.I am the whore and the holy one.I am the wife and the virgin. (Thunder: The Perfect Mind)I am not your rolling wheelsI am the highwayI am not your carpet rideI am the skyI am not your blowing windI am the sky hereI am not your automn moonI am the night(Audioslave: I Am the Highway)Okay, so that last one was from a song. But it still counts. ;-)

Honor thy Gnosis

What makes us free is the Gnosis"CredoApostolic Johannite ChurchI'm constantly finding myself in a struggle to define in terms what "Gnosticism" is. Because of this, I'm put in a position to rationalize the experience. While this doesn't lead to automatic suppression of any such experience, it can when the gnosis is ignored for the Gnosticism.With this in mind, I've almost found a definition of Gnosticism that I'm happy with. Through silent observation of dialogue over at Jordan Stratford's blog, I saw a good opportunity to actually sum up in words what it means. Sorry, Jordan+, if I'm stealing any such definition.Gnosticism comes from the Greek word "gnosis." Gnosis is a universal experience of the Divine that exists within and around every religion. Gnosticism is a specific religion designed to amplify and enhance the experience of Gnosis. There you have it.This is as simple a definition as I can give without trying to TELL someone what Gnosis is (a task that can prove quite difficult). As well, I think it honors the experience of gnosis as being central to Gnosticism.Peace.

It's not said enough-I love you

I love you.Three simple words that have so much impact on another person's spirit. Even if we know how another person loves us, it is of great comfort when we hear the words come out of their mouth.And yet, we still have problems saying it often. We don't think about saying it to our loved ones because we take them for granted. We don't realize that they might not be here tomorrow.Intellectually, there's some pressure to say "I love you." If it's a spouse or a dating partner, it can come fairly easy after the first time it has been said. If it's a relative or a friend, it can feel awkward. And why? Because we don't like letting our guard down. Because we don't like feeling vulnerable. Because when we express our emotions, we let down our exterior blockade of sensitivity and reveal our true self. I love you.People have often felt regret when a loved one has passed and they didn't get to say "I love you" before they died. And yet, they continue through their lives without saying it to the people they can still express it to. They still live in their shielded box, guarded from emotive interaction.Here and now, I say it to you all. I love you.My friends, my brothers, my sisters, parents and lovers: I love you all. Each one of you. I may disagree with you, I may believe differently from you...but I will never stop loving you.To those who would call themselves my enemy...I hope you know that I will continue to love you, even if you attack me. If my plane is driven into a building, I will still love you.If my country and my government fights with yours, I will still love you.If you call yourself my friend, I love you still. That bond will never be broken. No trespass will ever stray my feelings. I love you still, now and forever.If you call yourself my brother, or my sister, I love you.If you call yourself a stranger, I love you. If there's ever anything I can do to help you, just ask. I will always be here for you. I love you.If you think you're too strong for my love, I'm here when you fall. I love you, and I'll never abandon you. I only want to help. I am sorry if I offend. I hope for the best, and I see God in everyone. Each person is good, no matter their crimes or trespasses. Everyone deserves our love.I love you.

Living Gnosticism-Is it a religion in itself or just another part of a different religion?

2. Is Gnosticism a distinct religion, an approach to religion, or a sect within another religion?

A. Gnosticism can be all three. For me, it is a distinct religion. I practice my daily routines while trying to maintain an outlook on life through my own gnosis. For someone else, it can be an approach to religion: you can have gnosis, which for the individual is very concrete awareness - yet you can believe anything about that awareness and its relationto reality. Still others look at Gnosticism as a sub-sect of Christianity, because the two grew together within the same roots.Gnosticism can be absorbed through many approaches.For some, Gnosticism is the "true" Christianity, the religion that Jesus really intended Christianity to be, but instead it got corrupted into what the current form is today. These Gnostics often refer to themselves as Gnostic Christians, which seemingly makes it a distinct sect of Christianity but still a Christianity nonetheless. Others, of the modern day philosophy, tend to encompass Gnosticism as an "approach" to religion, being able to apply a Gnostic perspective to any set of beliefs. With this form, one can believe absolutely anything about Gnosticism, but Gnosis is always the key ingredient. For instance, you can follow Islam or Christianity with a search for the "truth," which can be applied aptly as "gnosis." For me, Gnosticism is a distinct religion. *Most* Christians will not associate with the term "Gnosticism," as this seems to bring the ancient words of "heretic" and "blasphemer" back to the table. The modern day definition of "Christianity" has become so far gone from what I hold to be true that I don't even call myself "Christian" anymore. I still identify with the Christ, but not to "Christianity." And of course, the Jews and the Muslims don't really identify with Gnosticism either.We really, then, have no choice but to accept Gnosticism as anything other than valid through the minds and beliefs of its own followers, which would make it a distinct religious view and practice. It seems to me that it is easy to bring a Gnostic perspective to any religion, as Gnosis is really the base to any spirituality, but you can't bring any religious perspective to Gnosticism. Of course that's just my opinion.

What's the difference between Gnosis and Gnosticism?

From Fr. Jordan Stratford's blog: Living Gnosticism: 20 Questions1. What's the difference between gnosis and Gnosticism?A. Gnosis is a realization of awareness; an understanding of reality. Gnosticism is the approach to life with the understanding of Gnosis.Gnosis, in its original Greek form, is "experiential knowledge." The Greeks, when using this word, often used it in reference to "knowledge of the Divine." While I don't actually believe this is a great definition, it is a fair one. In fact, Gnosis is a "knowledge" with "Divine" intuitions. But I would rather use the word "awareness." After all, gnosis is not a knowledge that you seek outside of yourself, such as "intellectual knowledge." You can't read about gnosis and suddenly understand what it is. There is no school that helps confer this special "experiential" knowledge unto you.It's like reading a book about brain surgery. Read all you like, take as many tests as you like, but you will never be able to perform brain surgery unless you have the adequate knowledge - that is, experience. So with this understanding of gnosis, I bring you to this definition: Gnosis is awareness of the self within reality and the relation of the self with the rest of reality.That being said, Gnosticism and Gnosis are two different animals.If a Buddhist practices Buddhism, does it automatically make him/her enlightened? Does it necessarily mean that they even understand what enlightenment is? No. But it is an active approach to enlightenment. The same principle is true of Gnosticism.Gnosticism is (1) an active approach to gnosis, and (2) a view, interpretation, and overall effect on life through the experience(s) of gnosis. One does not necessarily have to HAVE gnosis in order to practice Gnosticism, which is seemingly a common misinterpretation from people both inside and outside of Gnosticism, and even some clergy members. The idea that you can't practice Gnosticism without having gnosis is just unfounded, and in my opinion completely defeats the purpose behind a Gnostic movement.Gnosticism is a practice, through which is helpful for realization but not totally necessary for the experience of gnosis. One can realize gnosis, and never actually practice Gnosticism. However, Gnosticism is practiced mainly and chiefly through the quest for and the experience of Gnosis.

Gnostic Buddhism

The Four Noble Truths1. Birth is suffering, aging is suffering, illness is suffering, death is suffering; union with what is displeasing is suffering; separation from what is pleasing is suffering; not to get what one wants is suffering; in brief, the five aggregates subject to clinging are suffering.2. It is this craving which leads to renewed existence, accompanied by delight and lust, seeking delight here and there; that is, craving for sensual pleasures, craving for existence, craving for extermination.3. It is the remainderless fading away and cessation of that same craving, the giving up and relinquishing of it, freedom from it, and non-reliance on it.4. It is this path that ends suffering - right view, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, right concentration."

The brother of ignorance:Apathy

There is an old joke that I have always thought really funny:Reporter: Excuse me, sir, but I'd like to get your opinion on something. What do you think of ignorance and apathy in this country?Sir: I don't know, and I don't care.This is a great example of what apathy is. It is a lack of care.The problem with apathy is that it perpetuates a misguided feeling of separation from the whole. If, for instance, someone is in a problematic situation that you could help them out of, apathy stands between you two and prevents you from caring about the well-being of that other person. It doesn't effect me, so who cares? There is an excellent parable in Luke that, while probably not it's intended meaning, expresses the trouble with apathy:29But he, willing to justify himself, said unto Jesus, And who is my neighbour?30And Jesus answering said, A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead.31And by chance there came down a certain priest that way: and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side.32And likewise a Levite, when he was at the place, came and looked on him, and passed by on the other side.33But a certain Samaritan, as he journeyed, came where he was: and when he saw him, he had compassion on him,34And went to him, and bound up his wounds, pouring in oil and wine, and set him on his own beast, and brought him to an inn, and took care of him.35And on the morrow when he departed, he took out two pence, and gave them to the host, and said unto him, Take care of him; and whatsoever thou spendest more, when I come again, I will repay thee.36Which now of these three, thinkest thou, was neighbour unto him that fell among the thieves? While I believe Jesus in this passage was actually displaying a feeling of good neighborship for men between each other, only a blind man could see past the obvious implications here. Priests, considered to be men of God, and Levites - God's servants - are the characters in the parable who show the apathy. This shows that anyone can feel apathetic towards a situation. What we must be careful about in practice is being mindful towards humanity. Why don't more people give blood? Why is there so much poverty in the world? Why does anyone, in the modern world today, suffer beyond any extreme?The problem comes from apathy. If more people cared what happened to others, obviously, there would be fewer problems. It doesn't necessarily mean that NO ONE would have problems, as this is a fact of life, but we could definitely allow an easier way to survive. Apathy doesn't even have to stop with poverty. Our school systems suffer because we lack resources (or a better appropriation of resources). Why? Because fewer people care about the process of education. It doesn't effect them, so they don't feel a need to do anything about it. This breeds more apathy. Most people can recall with joy an instance in their life when someone showed an act of kindness towards them for no reason. This, also, can breed and populate more kindness within humanity. How much more do you think we can spread the feeling if we TRY to be mindful towards others as often as possible? Go to blood drives, donate money...and if you're broke, donate TIME. You have your own currency to help the rest of humanity. Spend it. Do not fall in love with apathy. We all live in this world together - so we must help everyone else survive. If you only help those who help you, what reward is there in that?

The faith of a Gnostic

There seems to be some misunderstandings about Gnostics and their relation to "faith" as a substantial force in religious thinking.Some believe that Gnostics require no faith - they simply "know" what they have to. To an extent, this is true. This has led some to believe that Gnosis is impossible to reach because they just don't "know" what it is they're supposed to know. It's also led to an elitist theory of Gnosticism by those who question its validity, in that we are perceived as believing that only we "know." I will try to shed some light on this, and help clarify a little.Faith, in and of itself, is a very important step in the Gnostic path. In order to first start down your path, you have to feel some problem in the world - more or less a feeling of "this isn't right." For the Religious, we might call this "questioning your faith." It is only questioning your faith in someone else's beliefs, however.It might then seem a little lonely because one feels that there is no one who thinks the same. Some might like this feeling of isolation, and a feeling of rebellion of the Whole can take place. This is not always bad, or even mostly bad, as it is just another way to walk down the path.For the Gnostic, to start down a path to Gnosis is to have faith that he/she will become aware of Gnosis. You have to believe it's there in order to proceed. If you are of the belief that the idea of realizing Gnosis is all illusion, you will more than likely drown yourself out of the sensations neccesary to realize Gnosis.When Gnosis is finally surfaced - when it is brought to the conscious level - it is only then that it becomes a matter of "knowing." Faith is no longer a big issue, but it is still there. You have to have faith in your knowledge to believe it's real. You have to know that what you are feeling is real, and you have to believe it's real. This, of course, is not a big problem. It's like believing you got cut when you see your finger bleeding. To put it lightly, Gnosticism is a faithful religious practice. However, it's not based off faith, it's based off the experience of Gnosis. The goal is not to stop at faith, but to keep going until it's no longer a matter of faith. Once that point is reached, a maze of other reflective goals appear, so that it never satisfies a person to stop searching for deeper and better understanding of said knowledge.Faith is not salvific. Faith is merely a step towards that salvation. Gnosis is the goal.

Gnosis is not gained

We are here for Gnosis. This is the point. That's why you're on this site, and why you spend countless hours searching for answers. Gnosis is the point of existence. So how do you get it?The answer, silly, is that you don't GET gnosis. You already have it. You just have to become AWARE that you have it.Gnosis is awareness of being aware. It is the point to where we long to return. It is realizing the source of self. You become aware of your gnosis, and you realize what/who "I AM." The "I Am" here, of course, is the spirit of you, me, and the Divine.Point here is: stop looking for gnosis outside of yourself. Realize that it's with you, constantly. There is no need to seek it out.Be still. Stop thinking. Realize.You know.

Gnosticism

Gnosticism - The view of life through an experience of gnosis.There have been a few places where struggling to define Gnosticism in theological terms has led to even bigger and more horrible discussions about the use and general relevance of theology in Gnosticism to begin with. It occurs to me that some might be trying to argue too much about word meanings and not enough on the actual intent on the message.From what I've seen, Gnosticism is a very secluded religion. There are no big huge Gnostic megachurches, and there are no cathedrals. You can't just walk down the street and join a Gnostic church, much less find a priest or minister to help you better understand the experience of gnosis, even if you just want help becoming aware of it yourself. The horrible truth of it is many miss out on the freedom of gnosis because we cannot comfortably give a concise definition of Gnosticism. When one who has not become aware of Gnosis approaches Gnosticism, he/she will either be interested or not. To those who are not interested, they usually require more information at a greater depth.To argue whether this is important seems to be a rediculous point to take. If we are to share our gnosis with others, we must invite others to the table. We must take an approach to defining what it is we view Gnosticism as, not so we feel better at night, but so we can open our doors to those who might show interest in the field.I had never even heard of Gnosticism until one a half years ago. This was not because I was happy with my religion and was not searching. This was not because I didn't read a lot, or because I just didn't look for the answers. I looked, trust me. I had heard of Wicca and Fairy Magic and Masons, but not Gnosticism in general. I hadn't heard of it because it is not taken seriously as a religion, and therefore few people talk about it.I don't believe we should try to define Gnosticism for ourselves to feel better about what we practice. I believe we should look for a theological definition that is acedemically accepted so that we may begin the processes of approaching a scholarly study of it.We must make Gnosticism accessible to people of all walks, and in the modern world, that's through our educational processes. If we cannot explore a Gnostic defintion of Gnosticism, our way of life will only be cycled between a very few. The fact that this is the case now is a travesty.

Gnosis of the soul

It is not coarse, not fine, not short, not long, . . without shadow, without darkness, without air and without space, intangible, odorless, tasteless, without eye, without ear, without voice, without mind, without energy, without breath, without mouth . . unaging, undying, without fear, immortal, without stain, without measure, without inside and without inside.
[Brihadaranyaka 3.8.8]
Upanishads

Reuniting reality

Once given a proper look, ignorance can be percieved as the barrier which breaks down unification. This is not saying ignorance is stupidity, but rather a lack of knowing.Once this is realized, the rest of the pieces fall like dominos. From ignorance is born separation, a feeling of one's self apart from the rest of the whole. Whether you can think it, know it, or feel it, all of humanity and nature is one. To view it scientifically, we are all gaseous molecules and atoms floating around in space, constantly colliding with one another and continually spawning new molecules and new forms. Take a few lenses off the microscope and yet still more mystery is unveiled. What we once thought of as "our body" is swarming with life forms, both parasitic and benign.The point here is that reality is not so separate. What we view as "you" and "me" is in effect "us." The separateness that is felt between the two is simply an unconcious level of not being able to feel that atomic connection between each other.Gnosis is, in some ways, a regaining of that feeling. To be able to feel your connection to the wholeness of nature is startling. It is a jolt of feeling that actually provides a sense of clarity. Enlightenment. Beginning as a realization of the self, i.e. the self beyond the physical, the clarity of the relation to the world is unveiled.You find yourself being able to feel that you are not looking through your eyes, feeling with your hands, or breathing with your lungs. You find that "you" just "are." All other sensations are just the material way of intaking information. Each physical sensation is just another electrical impulse to the brain. You are almost able to shed the body, and consciously "float."Beyond these experiences, the next goal is to be able to return to this state of mind. The more one can realize their gnosis, the easier it is to realize on a day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute, second to second basis.

The fight against pride

Having accomplished things is of great importance in this world of ours. There are those who have contributed a great deal towards humanity and there are still others who have done things to improve themselves. The focus here is not to eliminate glorifying accomplishments. The focus here is to eliminate glorifying yourself.When one feels a sense of pride, it begets a kind of emotional seperateness. "I" have done something "no one else" has done before. "I" becomes something different from "us." Not only has it separated one from the whole, it has caused that one to elevate themselves above the whole. Even in the smallest sense, it has caused separation from the whole.When one starts feeling a position of pride, it overcomes their ego. If that measure of success is not maintained, one will eventually find themselves depressed. Depression turns out more negativity, as it is just a gateway emotion for problems.Being prideful about any separational qualities leads to inner trouble. Gay pride, black pride, school pride, nationalism...all forms of the same. This is not to say that one should not develope a sense of who one is, but it is to say that one should not use their abilities and accomplishments to determine who they are. The "self" never changes. It is the ego's perception of the self that changes. We must never percieve ourselves as greater or lesser than the rest of the whole.Develope yourself with most humble intentions, for "the wise man walks always with his head bowed, humble as the dust."

The dream that must be interpreted

"This place is a dream. Only a sleeper considers it real.Then death comes like dawn,and you wake up laughingat what you thought was your grief. But there's a difference with this dream.Everything cruel and unconsciousdone in the illusion of the present world,all that does not fade away at the death-waking.It stays,and it must be interpreted.All the mean laughing,all the quick, sexual wanting,those torn coats of Joseph,they change into powerful wolvesthat you must face.The retaliation that sometimes comes now,the swift, payback hit,is just a boy's gameto what the other will be.You know about circumcision here.It's full castration there!And this groggy time we live,this is what it's like:A man goes to sleep in the townwhere he has always lived, and he dreams he's livingin another town.In the dream, he doesn't rememberthe town he's sleeping in his bed in. He believesthe reality of the dream town.The world is that kind of sleep.The dust of many crumbled citiessettles over us like a forgetful doze,but we are older than those cities.We beganas a mineral. We emerged into plant lifeand into the animal state, and then into being human,and always we have forgotten our former states,except in early spring when we slightly recallbeing green again.That's how a young person turnstoward a teacher. That's how a baby leanstoward the breast, without knowing the secretof its desire, yet turning instinctively.Humankind is being led along an evolving course,through this migration of intelligences,and though we seem to be sleeping,there is an inner wakefulnessthat directs the dream,and that will eventually startle us backto the truth of who we are." - Jelaluddin Rumi, 13th century mystic poet

Illuminary light

Jesus said, "Preach from your housetops that which you will hear in your ear. For no one lights a lamp and puts it under a bushel, nor does he put it in a hidden place, but rather he sets it on a lampstand so that everyone who enters and leaves will see its light." Gospel of ThomasSaying 33The transmutation that is brought about by gnosis on an individual's conscience causes one to undergo a spiritual illumination. One could call this awareness, or enlightenment, or moksha, or rapture, etc., etc. In each case one feels compelled to share this experience with others. Whether through art, poetry, charity, or just common courtesy. The changes one goes through spiritually effects the way in which you approach life - not just man, but ALL life. One notices the injustices in the world at a greater depth. Situations where one might have felt one way prior to gnosis might bring about an entirely different attitude after. One finds that morality is not an exterior component of life, because it can be judged from within. Rules and regulations have no standing because one feels what is right and wrong, spiritually as well as materially, and it is through this awareness that one carries on one's life.In certain circumstances, one feels compelled to not only be a certain way towards humanity, but to also spread the experience to others. It is this feeling that the Gospel of Thomas addresses. This passage tells us that it's not only okay, but it is expected to feel this way. We must spread our gnosis.

Yeah,but define sin...

Sin, in it's literal definition, originally meant "to miss the mark," as in archery. A better definition would be to say "stray from the path." One would have little trouble in finding a completely different definition in the modern world, however, for the word "sin."I would venture to say that the multitude today would define "sin" as being "an offense to God." Some would even argue that it's an action that directly damns you to Hell. Sin has been given an enormous amount of attention in most religious practices, and it is the deciding factor in deciding the "goodness" of others. Needless to say, it is definitely not the same word as the original meaning would suggest.However, the biggest problem for "sin" in the modern world has not come from its definition, but it's come from what is considered a sin. The problems always arise when the subject of sinful nature comes about. How do you tell what a sin is? Or better, how can you tell what will "stray one from their path?" Even if you don't look at it as a hellworthy offense (which, by the way, I do not), you can still put some value towards sin as being something that can block one's path to gnosis.So - who decides - and how - what a sin is?The answer, as always, seems more pragmatic than one might assume.It seems to me that a sin is anything that can pose negativity on one's self or someone else. This could mean different things to different people, but if you look at its core message, you can see a definition that's a little less broad.The problem with most of the mass's conclusions about sin is that it usually comes from another source, for instance, the Bible or the Qu'ran. Usually, one cites a particular passage and it is decided then that a particular action or state of being is sinful. One might even take another person's message, or anything for that matter, and decide to use it as evidence against another and their "sin."However, we all have a built in sense that allow us to be able to tell these things. It's called "common sense." The problem, one may notice, is that we're not raised to allow ourselves to know the difference between right and wrong, we're raised to be told what's sinful. We have so supressed our own gnostic insights in ourselves, that we have damned our children's chances as well.We must always practice tolerance. As well, we must realize that negativity doesn't birth itself, it's always man-made. Ignorance about negativity is the biggest stumbling block in one's path to gnosis.Peace be upon you all.

A guide to Praxis

Praxis is a theological idea or concept put into practice.As Gnostics, we are first and foremost a welcoming bunch. There are many things that we accept, many practices, many faiths. We are open to all those who wish to know, both on an individual basis and a mass congregational basis. The doors are always open to those interested.As well, Gnostics *in general* try to allow others their own individual liberties. For instance, Gnosticism does not deny any person their right to their own religious preferences. While theological discussion is welcomed, there is no pushing tenets on others. We accept that each individual has their own path.Praxis, for Gnostics, means putting into action the responsibility that gnosis gives. Once gnosis is understood, it is a means for determining one's own actions. Given the experiential awareness that is felt by gnosis, one is compelled to act kindly towards their fellow living creatures - all life is precious. Praxis is very fundamental. We cannot ignore its signficance. Too many of us are getting fed up with the world and secluding ourselves amoungst our fellow gnostics. We must express ourselves and our gnosis. This is why we are drawn to it, and what is the message from it. There are a number of things we should do to advance the understanding of Gnosticism as a religious practice, so that those on the outside of it can be drawn to it as well.What good can come from drinking the fresh water of the fountain, and not sharing it with others? What good does it do for one spirit to be free, and no more? We must do more. But what should we do? This is my proposal:1. We must speak, but not interrupt.2. We must correct, but not insist.3. We must help and not expect reciprocation.4. We must introduce our understandings, ideas, and concepts to the world, and understand that not every one will accept. But some will.5. We must approach archonic powers with love. Do not let anger or irritation better you.6. We must not be hipocritical.7. We must not stand in the background on issues. Our debates are important, for we approach situations with KNOWLEDGE, not emotion.8. We must provide assistance within our group. There are different levels of gnosis. A master can be an apprentice.9. We must not be too open-minded. There are many paths one can walk to find gnosis, but one must go the right direction. 10. Judge actions, not people. Not all souls awaken at the same pace.The world is already filled with people who do not act. We must distinguish ourselves, because our gnosis makes us distinguished.

Jesus and the christ

First, I want to distinguish two things.1. This post is about the Christ.2. There is a difference between the Christ and Jesus.That's right. I said it. Jesus and "the Christ" are two separate characters. Let's clarify:1. Jesus: man, idol, star of the play 2. Christ: personification of Divine awareness (gnosis) in physical form, e.g. a person.We're going to try to knock down a wall here, and expand the layman's understanding of the Jesus myth. For starters, Jesus, the son of Joseph, was a man, not a god. In particular - if you want to believe its historicity - he was more than likely a priest in a liberal Jewish monastic community called Qumran. If you don't want to believe its historicity, then we'll just say he was a Jewish rabbi.Jesus, at some point in his ministry, is elevated to a point where he becomes a spiritual master for a group of twelve apprentices, better known as his disciples. Along the way he heals the sick, raises the dead, and preaches his "good news." To this degree, he makes some powerful guys mad, and then they capture and crucify him. Of course, the story ends with him raising HIMSELF from the dead three days later.This is Jesus. This is his story. Read it – believe it or don't believe it. It doesn't really matter. The story itself doesn't matter, just the message.What might that message be? The message is that there is a Christ within each of us.The "Christ" was never meant to be a titular name, a last name, or even ascribed to one man for history's sake. The Christ is an indwelling spirit. It is a sleeping giant within the psyche that awaits the proverbial buzz of the alarm clock. The Christ is an essence that, once awake, illuminates the unenlightened. The Christ is eternal.For better comprehension, let's say this:A person achieves gnosis. They, in a split second, have felt bliss. The experience is remarkable. It's transcendental. However, the struggle does not stop there. There is no cure-all, one-time-only spark, and then "okay, I'm going to just get up out of my body and go home." This is just the first step. Through practice, patience, and repeated attacks by "archonic beings," both physical and spiritual, one relives their gnosis repeatedly. Eventually, if they are lucky, they achieve a "grace," which is to say, they realize gnosis and don't go back. This is Christhood: To be able to look at things from a constant Gnostic awareness.That's the goal. And that's the meaning of the Jesus story. This little ol' Jewish fella just got right off his 40 day fast from the desert and jumped up on his gnostic high horse. And throughout the testaments, the moral of the story is: YOU CAN TOO.33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.King James VersionMatthew 6:3320And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation:21Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.King James VersionLuke 17:20-21

Islamic Jihad

Okay, so everyone's familiar with the term. Jihad, the "holy war" fought by the Muslims against the Infidels, or the "people of no faith." The term has currently been applied to anything from an Iraqi blowing himself up in a car bomb to a group of terrorists flying planes into buildings. Is this really what a "jihad" is?Well...of course not.The actual term "jihad" literally translated from Arabic, means "struggle." It could be better applied to an act of spiritual struggle, one of faith. For example, one struggling to memorize the Qu'ran, or trying to push all earthly desires from his/her system. Either of these examples could be acceptable for context.This is often called the "greater Jihad," because it involves one's soul. Since this is the most important to the faith, this one should be the most important to a Muslim.However, there is a "lesser Jihad," which is usually applied to the physical struggle, such as a battle or a fight. The problem, you see, is that this Jihad was never intended to be an aggressive approach to the struggle. This was intended to be merely defensive. Since the word "Islam" literally means "peace," one is not pushed to combat with others, merely defend one's beliefs.Such crude misunderstandings of these terms have bred many more misguided souls, both Muslim and not, into hatred and bigotry.These literalist interpretations have brought violence to both "sides" of the "conflict" and continue to antagonize the situation to this day. Can anyone tell me, whether you agree with the methods or not, why there are bombs set off everyday in opposition to the United States' military in Iraq?It's not because people don't want freedom in their country. They just don't want the "infidels" to give it to them. Any violence at all directed towards any Muslim is considered an act of "jihad," and therefore seems to encourage more senseless violence.There has to be an end to war, particularly this one. But the end has to come from the aggressors, not those looking for stabilization. There will be no end, however, if views are not changed. There has to be a more moderate view on these teachings and those in the important positions (like the clerics and the politicians) need to direct that change.There must be a Jihad. And it must take place within one's self - to search for peace, and put away bigotry and violence.

Is Sophia a Gnostic Goddess?

For those who don't know the myth of Sophia, please go here.In a sense, Sophia is not a Goddess, or even a God. Sophia is just a manifestation of the Divine. Sophia was not created - simply eminated.Sophia, to some modern day gnostics, is a Divine Goddess to which we must seek communion with. She is as close to the human image of the Divine as we can ascribe a human image to.However, this is all myth as well. You miss the meaning in the message if you allow it to become literal interpretation. To put it in terms understandable, Sophia is a metaphor. Literally translated, "Sophia" is Greek for "wisdom." We will also define "wisdom" as "understanding of knowledge."To tie it all together:gnosis - experiential knowledgeSophia - wisdomwisdom - gnosis understoodSo, to look at it as an allegorical account, the myth of Sophia is actually a retelling of the route that wisdom has taken through time. The love of Wisdom, the fall of Wisdom, the abuse of Wisdom, and finally the return of Wisdom. These are the paths that "she" has taken, and it is through this path that we receive understanding of our gnosis today.While it may appear that gnostics are just another sect of "goddess worshipers," you must also understand that most of the stories are either myth or allegory. To take any of it literally is to miss the point.It is important to say that Sophia recieved redemption when she returned to the Ultimate Godhead. Therefore, it is to be understood that once gnosis is realized, redemption takes place within.

Sin vs. Ignorance-Which is worse?

The concept in the "modern" world today, at least in religious circles (though whether you could call these circles modern or not is in question), is that the major problem with most of the world's inhabitants are believed to be "sinful" people. The Christians, Jews, and Muslims all feel this way about each other.The Jews, the most oppressed of the three currently, feel that those who do not follow the Torah (literally, "the Law") are all doomed to feel Yahweh's wrath.The Muslims, the fastest growing faith, feel that anyone who has not proclaimed that "Allah is the one true God and that Muhammed is his prophet" will go to populate the bowels of hell.The Christians, the largest group, are just as stern in their response that you must "accept Christ and your Lord and Savior, and believe that he died on the cross to save you from...sins."What kind of modern world is this? All three faiths are equally intollerable of each other, yet they all are "born" of the same Abrahamic descent. "No, that's not what he meant. You should die now." This is crazy.What defines "sin?" Who knows? It seems to change with the seasons. It use to be hell-worthy to shave your beard. Some won't let you eat a pork chop. Whatever.All these "sins" arise out of ignorance. Ignorance sets guidelines by which to live your day to day lives. Ignorance holds you to these beliefs, and sets you apart from your neighbors. The only real sin is to embrace ignorance.It is then that you have really "missed the mark." Which, by the way, is the exact translation of the word "sin."Embrace knowledge, patience, love, and kindness...for everyone. You then will be saved of "sin." That is the only way.

Allah and Yahweh as the demiurge

Demi-who?!
Ah, the formidible opponent we Gnostics fight against daily.This "Demiurge" is the sole responsible agent for the current Islamic Jihad, the Christian crusades of the middle ages, and the Jewish slaughtering of their neighboring tribes/countries in the Old Testemant. He is what most of the known world relies upon for appeasement, prays to for guidance, and hides from with fear.The Demiurge is a horrible creator, with a jealous attitude toward any who dare question his authority. He is quick to smite even the smallest creature if the slightest desire of disobedience is felt. However, those who kill for, fight for, and represent him and his agents - called Archons, or rulers - will receive everything they've ever wanted.He is not evil, however, nor are his agents. He is nothing like Satan, for the Demiurge actually loves those who follow faithfully. No, his crimes are not evil. His crimes are born out of ignorance. Ignorance of what? Ignorance of the fact that he is not the TRUE Divine.And you know what's crazy?HE'S NOT EVEN REAL...That's right. It's myth. Metaphor. Not even the slightest iota of fact. The Demiurge is merely a representation of the real story. He is man's PERCEPTION of God. It's is for this PERCEPTION that people die daily in religious battles. It is for this PERCEPTION that people succumb to hatred for others. It is for this PERCEPTION that people are hated, bigoted against, and looked down on as "sinners."This perception must be fought. His archons? Lust, Greed, Spite, Rage...the rulers of the world. The worst ruler of all though...Ignorance.We must free our minds of any "perception" of the Divine, and release all the falacies of thought that "God is" or "God wants." We must realize that the Divine is without human concept. There is no characterization. There are no limits, no boundaries. Merely Divinity.The only way to know the Divine is to "know" the Divine. This is gnosis. For this, we must look inside ourselves. We must meditate, practice, study, and live. The path to gnosis is sometimes lonely, but never unfulfilling. This is the key to life.

Know thyself:Science of mind

How do you know yourself?What does this mean?How could you not know yourself? I know what my favorite foods are, my favorite colors, how I like my eggs cooked in the morning, and what I do for fun. So the question begs: What do you mean, 'know thyself?'This isn't quite as crazy as it may seem, the command here is not to know what you prefer about life, but to know your purpose in life, or to know at your core what you are in relation to the world. It has many levels of meaning. You can go your entire life being completely indulged in things you like to do, eat, smell, touch, taste, and see, but these are only outside qualities of what you know. To truly know yourself, you have to think of the big picture. Think of the universe, and what you are in relation to everything in it. What does such a small person, a tiny life form like you, have to do with the entire universe? What is your purpose?This is, at the heart of it, the real question. To know yourself is to know your purpose for being. It's like a drop of water understanding it's purpose in the ocean. And what is that purpose?Well, with risk of making things sound way too easy, the purpose of a drop of water in an ocean is that the ocean would be one less drop without it. The drop contributes to the whole. It makes the entirety complete. Therefore, your ultimate purpose is to make the entirety of creation complete. And what better way to do that than to become YOU?Sounds stupid at first, doesn't it? Think about it. Let's take a theological look at this just one second. Taking away from any dogmatic creed of any one religion, let's say you believe in God, or even Gods. Erase whatever name you have imprinted in your head for this "Divinity," and just accept that there is something there. What does it look like in your mind? Is it a person? Is it a man? Maybe it's a woman?Now, whatever you just thought about, erase that image completely. Let's start from scratch. Let's just assume, for the time being, that God is harder for us to understand than previously thought. Think of this: God is of no image, no name, no being, no concept, no form, both there and not; transcendent, if you will. Any concept you have of God - no matter how right it may or may not be - isn't anywhere close to the true Divine. It's like trying to draw a picture for the blind. We are the blind.Don't put a form around it, as this makes limitations. Don't put a name to it, as this defines forethought. For the time being, we will simply refer to it as the Divine. This Ultimate Divine, Creator of all thought, Beginner of the beginning, is the Ultimate Reality. And within this Reality, lies THIS reality. Since this reality is within the Ultimate Reality, or the Divine, everyone and everything is apart of it. Each galaxy, every star, every planet, every atom – nothing exists outside of the Divine. It is a thought, held together by the will of the Divine. On a more personal level, that means you are a part of that Divine. Every cell, nerve, vein, and thought of yours is apart of this Divine. Without you, the Divine would be less than it is. You're a drop of water in an ocean.Hopefully, that's not too much to take in all at one time. Of course, that might be oversimplifying reality as well. Plenty of questions arise out of the thought process of thinking that we are not separate from the Divine, but actually apart of it. In this thinking, one might assume, every time something or someone dies, a piece of the Divine dies. If we all are apart of the Divine, and without us the Divine would be that much less, then what happens when one of the many living things in this reality dies?Most science classes will tell you that energy never stops, it simply transfers from one thing to another. In this scenario, picture yourself as a big ball of energy. It shouldn't be too hard to imagine. The human brain has more electrical currents in the form of impulses going through it each minute than any device you can think of. For every sensation there is another current of electricity sent to the brain. Every thought is accompanied by a message sent all over the body. When you start to walk, you don't think to yourself "now I'm going to walk," you simply do it. And in that split second, millions of signals get sent through the body from the brain to the muscles to the nerves and whatnot, and then . . . the miracle that is "walking" ensues. The obvious nature of the body is to serve as a tool for us to live with. The body is governed by these impulses and signals, and has no control over them. The body does not decide when to walk, we TELL it to. SO – if the body is not the source of the energy, then what is?Man has always believed there is something that drives the body. Beyond all physical aspects, there is something "within" that is the actual source of all this life and movement. It has been called many different things, but we will refer to this in particular as the Spirit. From this Spirit comes this seemingly unending supply of energy. It is the source of all life in each person. It is this Spirit within us that transfers from one thing to another, that never remains static. Even though the body might die, or be destroyed, the source of energy remains constant. Energy does not die. And neither does the Spirit.This Spirit, as complex as it may be, is at the very core of everything, the most ultimate "you" that you can be. When you say, "I am," that's the part of you that you refer to. This Spirit within you is the REAL you, not your body. Even your sub-conscience realizes this. Notice in everyday speech, that you might say "my head hurts" or "my hand is strong" or even "I've got long legs." This sub-conscience mind of yours (which is the Spirit/Soul) is telling you that you are not the body in which you reside. You are saying that your arm, head, hand, or leg belongs to you, not that it IS you. In saying this, you have confirmed yourself that you are a being far more complex than just a body.It is to this end that we must ask ourselves: who are we?To know the answer to this is to have Gnosis.

Gnostic psychology

Gnostic Psychology
When one knows the how and the why of the mind, when one knows the different functionalisms of the mind, then one can control it. Thus, the mind becomes a useful and perfect instrument through which we can work for the benefit of humanity. -Samael Aun Weor, The Revolution of the Dialectic
The Esoteric Psychology of Religion and Myth
Esoteric:"Designed for, and understood by, the specially initiated alone; not communicated, or not intelligible, to the general body of followers; private; interior. Opposed to exoteric." Source: Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary.Psychology:from Greek psyche (pskhe) meaning "soul," and Logos, the "principle governing the cosmos," the Word, God. True psychology is "the knowledge of the relationship of the soul with God." Esoteric Psychology is the highest and most potent level of that knowledge, which is "private" and "interior" and is entered into in levels, according to the internal, initiatic process of the seeker.
What is the source of all misery? Deluded perception... based on ignorance of our true nature... Since the very heart of ignorance is the innate grasping at an "I," anyone who wishes to attain full liberation from all forms of suffering should strive to abandon this subtle, inborn ego-grasping... - Tsong KhapaPsychology is a science that has been studied since the dawn of humanity. Psychology is not simply the territory of modern psychiatrists and psychologists; the study and development of Psyche (Greek for "soul") is the essential root of every mystical and religious tradition in the world.In ancient times, for example, the Shamans (mystics who also served as doctors) understood that the body/mind, psyche (soul), and spirit were the principles to be studied regarding the composition of the human nature. Therefore, in dealing with disease, they would treat not only those symptoms and behaviors that can be seen easily, but also those which cannot be seen with the physical senses. Thus, psychology deals with two types of observable phenomena: external (being able to be perceived with the five senses: circumstances and events) and internal (that which is not observable with the five senses: states of consciousness).To deal with phenomena of an "unseen" or hidden nature is something that one constantly deals with in psychology and also in mysticism, religion, and occultism (occult means "hidden"). But these "unseen" phenomena have proven inaccessible to modern psychologists and scientists, in part because they refuse to study the wisdom of the ancient religions, discarding it all as "myth" and "superstition." Instead, they persist in inventing new theories, which leaves them in the unfortunate position of contradicting themselves with each new theory or concept. Of course, our modern psychological "experts" are often the first to admit that they are nowhere near solving the massive psychological problems that burden humanity.The "hidden" phenomena that truly drive the visible manifestations of human behavior have remained out of the reach of scientists and theorizers because such phenomena are beyond the physical senses. Only those who know how to utilize the other senses of the human being can perceive the realities beyond the five primary senses. Therefore, the modern scientists and doctors are working "blind," a fact that many of them readily admit. This is because they lack understanding regarding the most important aspect of psychology: consciousness. Where does it come from? What is its function? How can one cultivate and develop it? These are some of the most important questions that pertain to the study of psychology, and in modern psychology they remain unanswered.Consciousness is divine intelligence within the human. It is universal and comes from God, the Buddha nature, the Intimate, the Lord God of Truth Within. This is the factor upon which all of the unsolved equations of "modern" psychology rests. In studying the techniques given and synthesized by the Venerable Master Samael Aun Weor, we can learn the way our consciousness has been conditioned and even programmed into a type of psychological somnambulism.With knowledge that is acquired when one works directly with the consciousness, esoteric (hidden) knowledge is cultivated. It is hidden to those who refuse to utilize the proper tools. The Gnostic psychologist who works to cultivate esoteric knowledge (relating to the mysteries of life, death, and nature) directly and tangibly perceives the true nature of the human mind, heart and psyche (soul).Esoteric psychology, as studied in the light of Universal Gnosticism, can be found in all of the scriptures of the ancient religions. One cannot deny that the Old and New Testaments, for example, teach an in-depth doctrine of psychology. These teachings are taught in parables or stories, often with obscure symbols that are understood only to those who "Know" (Gnostics, or in other words those who have been initiated into the hidden knowledge). This is why we compliment the study of psychology with Alchemy and Kabbalah. Alchemy, the "chemistry of God," is the scientific and chemical basis of inner transformation. Kabbalah, related to the ancient teaching of the Tree of Life, is the mathematic basis of inner transformation. When these forces are combined with meditation, a complete system of deep and penetrating wisdom is revealed; the symbols and parables are revealed in their original and pervasive depths. Through the combination of these sciences, a synthesis is formed which reveals in turn the synthetic ground from which all true inner wisdom arises. Like Kabbalah and Alchemy, psychology is an occult (hidden) science, because once applied, it reveals that which was once hidden in the psyche, and one can experience the miracles of the saints.From this perspective we can understand why all the world's great religions and mystical traditions contain the same symbols, icons and messages. It is because they are all derived of the same source, and that source is the source of the human psyche, the source of the worlds, planets, galaxies etc. That primal source is universal, perfect, whole, and complete; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken away.Science is the method of religion. Religion comes from the Latin religare, which means, "to unite." It is the Inner Being that we seek to unite with. That which separates us from the Inner Being is the selfish desires that condition the consciousness into instinctive, mechanical impulses. These desires are the multiplicity of "egos" or "psychological I's" that we carry within. These are the unseen causes of the diseases that exist in humanity (diseases of the mind, heart and body). It is the goal of Gnostic Psychology to comprehend and eliminate the egos, so that we can liberate the consciousness and finally return to the Divine Principle through an ancient, systematic and practical technique.We study psychology to learn how to bring about practical change in our lives. It teaches how to bring about health through balance. If we observe the common level of being of humanity, we would see that humanity is not completely healthy. The group is only the sum total of the individuals. Therefore we as individuals need a revolution, in ourselves, here and now. To assist humanity, we must learn how to change ourselves.

About good songs and an example

Breathe me by sia
Help, I have done it againI have been here many times beforeHurt myself again todayAnd, the worst part is there's no-one else to blameBe my friendHold me, wrap me upUnfold meI am smalland needyWarm me upAnd breathe meOuch I have lost myself againLost myself and I am nowhere else to be found,Yeah I think that I might breakLost myself again and I feel unsafeBe my friendHold me, wrap me upUnfold meI am smalland needyWarm me upAnd breathe meBe my friendHold me, wrap me upUnfold meI am smalland needyWarm me upAnd breathe me
This is such a beatiful song and you should go listen to it
This song is about losing yourself by trying to be someone your notYou are hurting yourself... because you are slowly becoming someone you are not.and you keep doing it and you lose yourself.
like the transcendental philosopher said"imitation is suicide".You can't escape airAnd that is the only way people know you still exist.But thats just my interpretation.Bad songs are … obvious.Good songs aren't.And this is a good song.

Jesus-A mythological figure?

Hundreds of years before Jesus was meant to have been born the pagans worshipped differerent gods(depending on where they came from) who like Jesus:
Claimed to be the son of god,Was born of a virgin on the 25th of december before three shepards,turned water into wine,died on a cross and resurrected at easter and offered his body and blood as holy communion.
There is also no historical records for Jesus actually being a historical figure except for the bible which could be classed off as fiction anyway,Some of the bible scripts were changed and forged, and the gospels were actually written to encourage certain spiritual messages through the fictional character of Jesus.
The pagans did not actually believe that these dying and resurrecting Gods of theirs were real,they taught that they were mythological figures made up to teach special teachings to those who were worthy.In the last century BC, many jews moved to Alexandria, in Greece which was full of pagans worshipping their own dying and resurrecting God called Dionysus.Many of these Jews decided to also follow this pagan god as well as their own jewish beliefs.
In 66CE, Jerusalem was destroyed by the romans and many of the jews were in panic.Many jews proclaimed themselves to be the messiah, but when trying to do miracles, miserably failed.Many jews all over the world now followed both the pagan mysteries and Judiasm and soon many of them had got sick of these fake messiahs.They decided to create theyre own totally new version of the pagan mysteries with a character called Jesus(Joshua in hebrew) to stop all of these ideas and to have theyre own version of the mysterys.
I said before that the pagans did not believe that their Gods were actually historical but believed they were mythological and were created to pass on the hidden truths of the true God.The jews copied this and created theyre own scriptures combining the pagan beliefs with their own jewish beliefs.The jews therefore created Jesus who was both the messiah and the dying and ressurecting pagan god.To create Jesus and his story, the jews used both the prophets words in the old testament and many pagan beliefs.This became known as christianity and this original group of christians were known as the gnostics.
The pagans created their dying and resurrecting gods as myths and never proclaimed them to be historical.The god myths were the "outer" mysteries. The "inner" mysteries were secret teachings that could only be taught from word of mouth to the initiates of the inner mysteries.Initiates of the inner mysteries accepted that their dying and resurrecting god storys were myths created with the intent of drawing people into the pagan mysteries.When an outer mystery initiate discovered the allegories behind the myths, they became part of the inner mysteries.The inner mysteries brought a sense of enlightenment and a relationship with god and sophia(Greek for wisdom).The mythical texts of these gods had secret hidden teachings in them,the main one being the god dying and resurrecting.This was basically an allegory that we as humans could metaphorically "die"from our old sinful selves and be "born again" and know that God was actually a part of us and always had been.
The christian mysteries ran exactly this way, but with the intent of discovering what they called gnosis(Greek for knowledge)as well as the other things already mentioned above.This was the first and proper version of christianity.The gnostics did not believe that Jesus literally died as a martyr,but that his death symbolically represented a profound mystical truth.To imitate Jesus was not to court martyrdom, but to die to one's own lower self and resurrect as the christ within.
Why have I never heard of the gnostics before then, I bet youre wondering.The literalist christians wiped them out, along with all their teachings.They also wiped out the pagans and their teachings too.Why though?About 70 ce when the romans laid waste to Jerusalem, the Jews were spread about the world as slaves and refugees.Many of these Jews were still only part of the outer mysteries and so did not know about the inner mysteries.They were spread apart so far from places of initation that they created their own sect of christianity and called themselves literalists.They took the Jesus myth as truth and wiped out the pagans and gnostics for being "heretical"

More stuff on heaven

Ive just been reading a few books about heaven and stuff like that and Ive also been thinking about the whole concept of heaven.
If you ask someone/a christian what they think about heaven then they will usually say something about heaven being in the sky,that heaven is in this world,or reaching heaven when you die and only if youre a christian.Well I think differently.I recently read a passage in the bible about there being other worlds than ours.
So what if heaven exists not in this world, but in another maybe and its all around us?Or even better, what if the key to heaven is inside us and we have to discover it ourselves in this lifetime and not the next?Interesting concept, huh?
Now sure I'm a christian, so this may sound kind of wierd coming from me, but I am not an "orthodox" christian.I am a "Gnostic" christian but more about that later.Gnostics believe that through knowledge or "gnosis" (a kind of enlightment) we can discover ourselves and have a relationship with the mystery god(not the tyrant from the bible).And if we achieve this then we have discovered heaven, inside ourselves.
I dont believe that you can achieve this "heaven" in just one life and thats where reincarnation comes in.Unlike christians, we dont believe that when you die thats it and you live in heaven or hell for eternity.We believe that when you die you are reincarnated and in your next life you travel further along the path to achieving gnosis and "heaven".Gnostics believe in 7 heavens, this world being one of them as well as hell being one too.We believe that if you die without receiving Gnosis then, depending on where you are on your spiritual path , you will go to 1 of 5 heavens for a short period of time.And this also brings in what I said before about different worlds/dimensions.
Once youve achieved Gnosis and have this so called "key to heaven", Gnostics believe that you will finally go to the 7th and highest heaven to live with The "Mystery God" and Sophia the wisdom Goddess.
It all sounds really complicated and you probably wont understand this if youve never heard anything like this before but, there you go.

About Gnosticism

About Gnosticism and Gnosis

"GOD is GNOSIS – not a divine being but a divine knowing – one that is the source of all beings and immanent within them all."
- Peter Wilberg -
"... the noble person recognises God in everything,the common person the form, not the spirit."God is gnosis - a divine inner knowing that is the source of all beings and immanent within them all. Each human being is linked to God and to all other beings through this divine inner knowing - through gnosis.
"The soul is an exhalation that percieves"
"The body is a projection into a three- dimensional world"
Jesus said" The kingdom is inside and outside of you"
Gnosticism' is a word usually used to name a variety of early Christian sects, later deemed heretical, that sprang up in the first centuries after Christ and whose 'gospels' were made famous by their discovery at Nag Hammadi in Egypt. In essence however, gnosticism is nothing more or less than the unacknowledged world religion of all times - an underground spiritual tradition that has always rejected reliance on religious rites and symbols and instead affirmed "the wordless knowledge within the word" (Seth). Understood in this way, gnosticism is highly relevant to our own times - in order to "lead mankind behind the symbolism upon which religion has relied for centuries." (Seth). Hence the need to reaffirm the essence of gnostic spirituality in a new way suited to these times – the need for a 'New Gnosis'.

The kingdom of heaven

*Where does your body begin and end?Where do you begin and end?
*The only boundaries of your body and of your being are the boundaries of your awareness.The "Kingdoms" outside and inside of you are respective fields of your outer and inner body awareness.
*The kingdom "outside" you is the field of your outer, bodily awareness of the world around you-bounded only by the curvature of space-time.
*The kingdom "inside" you is the inner field or space of awareness you sense as yor soul or psyche,bounded by your body.
*"The kingdom inside" leads down into the "kingdom of heaven".This is what we call the "spiritual world"- an unbounded inner realm of divine awareness which, paradoxically both surrounds, and lies behind the "outer" realm of the "kingdom outside".
*This paradox is the key to "the kingdom" as such- as represented by the keyhole symbol.For this shows the "kingdom of god" as a unity of three seperate but insperable fields or kingdoms(the kingdoms inside and outside, and the kingdom of heaven).
*The keyhole symbol is truly a key to the new Gnosis and the "Key" too, to what Christ referred to as "the kingdom".It shows the true nature and topology of this "kingdom" as a unified field of awareness-uniting a kingdom "outside" us(the realm of our "outer" physical awareness of the world) and the kingdom "inside" us(the realm of our inner physical awareness).
*The design of the symbol shows the kingdom we sense"inside" or "within" our bodies as the unbounded inner protrusion or projection of an unbounded realm of divine awareness-the "heavenly kingdom".The "heavenly kingdom" is the "inner" spiritual world that both surrounds the "outer" physical world and fills every body within it.
*This shows that God not only dwells within us.We also dwell within god.For all bodies in space and all space-time universes exist within the unbounded field of divine awareness that is The heavenly kingdom and are filled with its divine breathe-the holy spirit.

Mary Magdalene in Virgin/Madonna of the rocks paintings

The painting"The virgin of the rocks" is described as a representation of Jesus,John the baptist,Virgin Mary and the angel Uriel on a perilous outcropping of rocks.It was painted by Leonardo Da Vinci.Da Vinci was ordered to paint a center panel(along with 2 other artists) for a triptych church alterpiece panel in a Franciscan Chapel.The instructions for this were specific but mentioned nothing about John,Baby Jesus and the angel Uriel in a cave.The instructions for the painting are as follows:"Our Lady,ranked by two prophets,will occupy the centre of the painting portrayed to perfection.The cloak of our lady in the middle be of Gold brocade and Ultramarine Blue.Also that the gown be of Gold Brocade and Crimson lake,in oil...Also the Seraphim done in Sgrafitto work.Also God the father to have a cloak of Gold Brocade and Ultramarine Blue...The angels above them to be decorated and with their garments in the greek style...Our lady shall be decorated like the one in the middle,and the other figures are to be in the greek style,decorated with various colours...All of which shall be done to perfection...In garments differentiated from each other...Our lady with her son and the four angels shall be done in oil to perfection with the two prophets painted on flat surfaces in colours of fine quality...Also in the place where the infant is,let there be put Gold worked to look like Spinnchristi".What the priors got,however was Mary,naked Jesus and John and one angel,all sat within a rocky grotto and not a halo in sight.The problem was,Leonardo only had a few months to complete this(which was impossible),and so completely ignored the commision and made use of a composition he had already painted for another purpose.It has been suggested that this painting is a representation of a popular 14th-century tale about Mary in the desert,but Leonardo never said so and the portrayal is different to that story.Another thing-teh angel Uriel is said to be present,but the girl in the picture does not have proper wings and Uriel was always described as male.As Leonardo had painted a completely different picture he was paid only 25 ducats instead of 100,and so started a court case against the chapel.The painting was rejected and it's name at the time was"La Nostra Signora(Our lady)".Leonardo was ordered to paint a second piece which became The madonna of the rocks.The painting seems to have been repainted a number of times(like the supper) and the reed cross was painted after Leonard's death to distinguish which boy was John.In both painting's John seems to be with Mary,and Jesus with the angel(Most viewers to this day still do not understand this).The reed cross was inserted alongside a small scroll relating to the other childmwhich states in latin"Behold,the lam of God".But how did that artist know that the boy with Mary was supposed to be John?And why did he assume the other was Jesus?Leonardo never said so.These are just presumptions that the painting was based on the meeting of Mary and Elizabeth in the desert.But there was no Elizabeth,Joseph and the proper Uriel in the paintings,and Leonardo had certainly not depicted the desert tale.His scene was completely different.In both paintings,the pyramidal grouping is the same,with the smaller child seemingly blessing the larger.In the secong painting, the halos were painted on later,like the cross and scroll.In each painting,Mary is wearing blue and Gold.Also,her left hand is poised protectively above the smaller child.The girl,who points at the larger boy in painting 1,has stopped pointing and a major change has been made to her clothing.Originally when painted she wore the red and green colours of the magdalene,but in the second painting the dress colours are surprisingly fudged and indistinct.There is a third painting in this series which is markedly different to the other 2.In basic construction it resembles the original,the scroll,reed cross and halos are gone and the girl is back to her pointing pose.She is also back in her green and red magdalene colours.But most surprisingly,Mary is now wearing green and red too,along with gold,and her hair is a bright red.In fact,she is now a perfect representation of the traditional magdalene figure.This cannot be a mistake as all paintings of the magdalene were painted in these colours and all paintings of the virgin Mary could not be painted in these colours.In the 2nd painting, a distinctive flower was added at the base of Mary's dress-a single arum lily(cala lily).This is the flower with the pure white spathe and a long cone-shaped yellow spalix.These days it is correectly names Zantedeschia after the italian botanist Zantideschi.Much is made in the painting of the exaggerated spadix,which stems from the greek for "Palm Tree",the semetic equivalent of which was Tamar.Strangely, Mary Magdalene and Jesus's daughter's name was "Tamar".In mediterranean europe,south africa,and Britain,it is a traditional flower of the bridal bouquet.Mary Magdalene is a significant bridal figure as is her her wedding with Jesus.It is relevent to note Leonardo was influenced for the rocky setting by the Old Testament Song of songs which reads"The vine put forth the tender grape...Arise,Come my consort,My fair one...Thou art my dove in the shelter of the rocks".In these respects the Arum lily is pure Magdalene iconography.
Leonardo never claimed the central figure was Mother Mary.She was simply assumed to be.He called her Our Lady(La nostra Signora) which is precisely what Mary Magdalene was called by the Templars and troubadours,who Leonardo was a part of.Neither did he state the boys were John and Jesus,or that the girl was the angel Uriel.Seeing as she is female,she cannot be the angel.
We are now left with an interesting scenario that is heightened significantly in paintings 2 and 3.We have a maternal figure who is rather more like Mary Magdalene than Mother Mary, and a girl clearly older than the other two boys.We have 2 boys,One larger and older than the other,with the girl pointedly directing our attention towards the elder boy in paintings 1 and 3.And we have a landscape more european looking than any holy land or egyptian setting.After Jesus's death,Mary Magdalene was also said to have fled the country to France,where she lived in a rocky cave,like the background in the painting.In consideration of all this,a possibility emerges.Mary Magdalene had 3 children, 1 older daughter and 2 younger sons,each some years apart.Given that Leonardo was involved with an esoteric rosecrucian fraternity of Magdalene adherents,it is most likely that this rocky scene was always a romantisized portrayal of the Magdalene family.

Jesus and Mary Magdalene's marriage

Ok so this is what I believe and to me it dosn't seem so far fetched.And before you say"oh none of its true",just think over the possibilities because i used to be like that and now I believe it. One more point-Why is it wrong for Jesus to have had a wife?Some people say it would have stopped him from doing his duty,but if he was married,then that makes no sense as he still did his duty.Jesus was also supposed to be both human and divine and had human feelings,so it would probably have been quite natural for him to have had a wife.
The marriage of cana
Proponents of the theory that Mary Magdalene and Jesus were married point to a Jewish convention in existence during the couple's lifetime.A jewish man was expected to marry and create children.By not marrying Jesus would have willingly chosen to go against societal norms and practices under Mosaic law.
Some say precedent existed for him to choose bachelorhood.For example,some prophets of the old testament and his own cousin,John the Baptist,did not marry.Yet those who believe that he would have married suggest that by not marrying,the society in which he lived would have judged him to be diminished.His own grandfather Saint Joachim,suffered terribly for being barren until God's mercy enabled Joachim's wife Anne to become pregnant with Mary,the blessed virgin.The temple priests of Joachim's time refused his offering,calling him cursed by God for not fathering children(in particular,sons).
As for being a wife,Mary Magdalene may not have wanted marriage either.It is likely,however,that she would have been deeply attracted to the charismatic Jesus.How could she not have fallen in love with him?But would Jesus have returned her love as a man to a woman?Or would he have subjugated his more human instincts in order to devote all of his body's energy and power to his divine mission?I think not.Or was Mary Magdalene a teacher for him,initiating him in scared rites of lovemaking,perhaps toward the goal of merging male and female energies into a mystical state of cosmic consciousness where their sense of separateness dissolved into an ocean of oneness?
As Matthew 19:4-5 says:And he answered and said unto them,Have ye not read that he which made them at the beginning made them male and female;and said,"For this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife;and they twain shall be one flesh?"
God knew exactly what he was doing when he created male and female.Further,he may have had a specific purpose in mind-marriage.Mary Magdalene cherished Jesus.Some writers have suggested that the wedding at Cana was none other than Mary Magdalene's own marriage to Jesus.He was there with his disiples.By that time,Mary Magdalene had travelled far and wide with Jesus and his disciples,was always with them and was even considered by others to be a 13th disciple,and so would ahve most definetly been at the wedding.At many weddings today,it is the mother of the bride and groom who most often worries about the quantities of food and drink.In this story,Jesus's own mother seems to be the one doing this sort of worrying.She's a guest of the wedding(or so we are to believe),and yet she goes to the servants of the house and tells them to carry out Jesus's instructions.Funnily enough,it was only the high priest of the wedding,the groom or the groom's mother who could order the servants around like this,showing that Jesus was most probably the groom in this wedding.In her instructions to the servants,she effectively orchestrates what will be Jesus's first sign that he is the messiah.
John 2:3-10 says:And when they wanted wine,the mother of Jesys saith unto him,"They have no wine".Jesus saith unto her,"Woman, what have I to do with thee?Mine hour is not yet come".(Here Jesus is saying he is not yet ready to prove who he is and that he is busy,most likely with the wedding)His mother saith unto the servants,"Whatsoever he saith unto you,do it".And there were set there six waterpots of stone; after the manner of the purifying of the jews,containing two or three firkins apiece.Jesus saith unto them"Fill the waterpots with water."And they filled them up to the brim. And he saith unto them"Draw out now, and bear unto the governor of the feast."And they bare it.When the ruler of the feast had tasted the water that was made wine;and knew not when it was, (but the servants which drew the water knew,)the governor of the feast called the bridegroom.And saith unto him"Every man at the beginning doth set forth good wine; and when men have well drunk,then that which is worse;but thou has kept the good wine until now."
Jesus was the one who brought the wine to the Governor,yet the text calls the one who did this the bridegroom,meaning Jesus changed the water into wine at his own wedding.

Time as an archon

Time is nothing but the gauge that we use in order to judge the "distance" between two events. Time has no meaning, outside of our limited understanding of its relationship to the universe. If there were no cycles, no births, and no deaths, time would be utterly non-existent.It is by this time frame that we fashion our lives. We live the moments of our youth as if they were infinite, and as our understanding of the limits of time increases, our daily devotion to it increases. We plan our day, our schedules, our meals - our entire way of life is based upon the moments that we use and have left throughout life.But how realistic is this? Examine.There is no difference between this moment and the last, other than the molecules of the universe have shifted into different positions. There is no "age" - it does not exist. Things are ever shifting, evolving, mutating, and transforming into different shapes, sizes, forms, and substances. Your body is never the same, materially, from one moment to the next. Neither is the universe.Don't misunderstand me. I make no plans to miss my scheduled school time. But what I want to address here is the worship of "time" as an entity - an archon. This "ruler" controls the very fabric of our existence, and blocks gnosis at every corner.Much despair and grief arises from our worship of time. We fear the day that our body is no longer animate, or one of our loved ones in no longer with us. Those who have faith pray that they can greet the "after-life" with the concept that they view the most appealing. Some choose to put a time frame on the existence of the planet, the sun, and the universe.Time is no more than an illusion. There is no past, just as there is no future. Every event that has ever occurred has occurred right now, this time, present - we just gauge the time appropriately to fit into our ideas of the sequences of events. The same goes true for the death of the body. People fear this time the most, because it is the least understood.Once the concept of time can be overcome, you can allow your mind to rest openly. Understand that the time we fear is not going to be some distant date, but it is right now - just as your birth. How many events happen between this event and the next? Who knows? This is unimportant. When we can grasp this concept of "now," and shed the concept of time, we can start to embrace the present.Feel the touch of the now. Hear the sounds that flow. Live the breath that you breathe. Sense the emotion that overcomes you. Know that the "death" that you feel is an illusion as well, because it is just a transformation of substances. The spirit, the energy, the consciousness - these timeless functions of existence will continue.Learn to release time. It's a heavy burden to bear, one that can constrict the pursuit of gnosis. Focus on the "now", and you can find a way to see into the infinite.

Face your fears-Death

Something I've done a lot of contemplating on lately.What I've found is that the deepest form of fear inevitably comes from one's unique uncomfortableness with death. I've suffered from this affliction, as I'm sure the vast majority of those reading have as well. If it's not death itself, it's what it will be preceded by - in other words, how it's going to happen. Beyond that, there's usually a question of uncertainty. What happens after? Harder question to answer than one might suspect, even for the most religious people. Once you dissect the form or brand of whatever particular version of religion you desire, you're left with little else but your own thoughts. You can picture the circumstances that will surround your death, but there's still a slight hint of unease. If you're not careful, this feeling can turn to dread, then fear, and then it can consume you. Very, very unhealthy - and not very productive either."When one dreams a dream, one does not know that it's not real until they wake. How, then, do we know that death is not the greatest pleasure?" - Kung Fu, TV SeriesWe, as religionists (not a priest anytime soon), attempt to diagram, study, explain, and delve deeper into the unknown - not for other people's sake, but for our own. Initially, the goal is completely selfish. There is a knowledge that exists that can help us determine exactly what happens to our consciouness at the moment of death - and we all yearn for this knowledge. It is the entire reason our species seeks out and explores the possibilities of the universe. This knowledge is like the Fountain of Youth, a never-ending specticle of immortality. Which is, after all, the goal. We seek answers about our mortality in the hopes that we can discover that we are actually immortal, and that we can cheat death. But it is not "death" that people fear, per se, but rather the end of their own existence. The knowledge that is yearned for is just a comfort blanket, if you will - sort of a reassurance that everything will work out in the end. Then we must gauge ourselves accordingly. Realize that "time" is merely static - invented by man in order to establish a way to gauge a sequence of events. "Time" is merely a means to an end, and we have focused our entire existence on surveying time. Clocks, watches, fast-food, instant coffee - all forms and brands designed specifically to feed off the idea that we are losing time. The fear technique is tapped in order to establish our own end - that our physical selves are running out of time, so make the most of it while you can.But this is rediculous. Since time is really static, and all we observe are sequences of events, then we have always and will always live in the present - never NOT existing. There is no past, there is no future - as you read this passage, you are merely keeping track of the seconds and the missing time of your life based on the starting point of this paragraph and the ending punctuation. When you finish, nothing has changed except for the balance of atoms in existence and their particular place in reality. "Time" has not moved.And so we must conclude, that at the moment of death, the physical life that we live is only changed, since the energy and mass of our selves are still extant. There is no life left in this shell, but according to physics, the energy can't just disappear. It has to exist somewhere.In what capacity? That's an entirely different topic. But there is a knowledge that can lead us to these answers. The knowledge is there, almost as if it was placed there intentionally. This knowledge, friends, is called gnosis.

Lucifer

There is a common misconception that Lucifer is Satan but this is untrue.
So I'm going to try and prove that Lucifer is not "Satan".
There's a passage in the Old Testament which is commonly used as Biblical "proof" of the character of Lucifer, the proud angel who rebelled against God and was thrown out of Heaven. It comes from Isaiah 14:12,
"How you have fallen from heaven,O morning star, son of the dawn!You have been cast down to the earth,you who once laid low the nations!"
The word Lucifer is the latin word for " The Morning star".Seeing as it is a latin word,the word Lucifer would not have been in use when the passage from Isaiah was first written down.Lucifer is also sometimes translated as "Light bearer" which seems a bit funny-why would "Satan" bear light?
But look at what Jesus says in Book of Revelation 22:16,
"I, Jesus, have sent my angel to give you this testimony for the churches. I am the Root and the Offspring of David, and the bright Morning Star."
What the…? Well, maybe it's just a fluke. Sorry, check out 2 Peter 1:19,
"And we have the word of the prophets made more certain, and you will do well to pay attention to it, as to a light shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts"
So, what's Jesus saying here… that he's none other than Lucifer? That the reason he's sent down to Earth is the same reason that Lucifer was cast out of Heaven? I'd be interested in seeing what kind of mental gymnastics literalist Christians use to get out of this trap, because it's a doozy. Either we have Jesus admitting that he's Lucifer… or something else which is equally damaging to literalist interpretations of the Bible: that the Bible was mistranslated and modified, and thus is not the perfect Revealed Word of God.
In the original Hebrew text, the fourteenth chapter of Isaiah is not about a fallen angel, but about a fallen Babylonian king, who during his lifetime had persecuted the children of Israel. It contains no mention of Satan, either by name or reference.
Why Lucifer? In Roman astronomy, Lucifer was the name given to the morning star (the star we now know by another Roman name, Venus). The morning star appears in the heavens just before dawn, heralding the rising sun. The name derives from the Latin term lucem ferre, bringer, or bearer, of light." In the Hebrew text the expression used to describe the Babylonian king before his death is Helal, son of Shahar, which can best be translated as "Day star, son of the Dawn." The name evokes the golden glitter of a proud king's dress and court (much as his personal splendor earned for King Louis XIV of France the appellation, "The Sun King").
The morning star all these people are referring to is actually the planet Venus which is the third brightest star in the sky.
Now I have an idea which stems back to my Gnostic beliefs about this whole thing.Jesus would naturally be called the light bearer or morning star because of who he was.
In Gnostic myth, we all have a divine spark inside of us(which comes from Jesus and The true God) which we must discover and free to achieve Gnosis.And in this same Gnostic myth this "light spark" falls and enters the body of the first human beings.
In 2 Peter 1:19, the text says"as to a light shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts."
Well it seems to me that this passage is referring to the divine light spark that is hidden away in us until we achieve our Gnosis.Many passages that refer to the morning star refer to it as "falling" from heaven(I am not referring to the passage from Isaiah here)like the divine spark of light.Jesus is also said to be the morning star and is also seen as this divine spark.
But that's just my opinion

The allowance of pain

All of you have likely heard talk about the universality of Love. It's in many places, from the Bible saying "God is Love" to various newer teachings. For instance, the most famous quote of A Course in Miracles is :
"The opposite of love is fear, but what is all encompassing can have no opposite."
According to this, the universe itself is composed of nothing but love. And yet our experiences seem to be full of things which do not appear loving. Others may treat us with disdain and rudeness, and we ourselves may experience emotions such as pain, anger, despair and grief that we think are as far from the experience and ecstasy of love as can be. And yet, if the universe itself is made of love and we are part of the universe, then logically we ourselves should be made of nothing but love. So why do we experience such intensely negative emotions such as pain, when love is supposed to be ecstatic?
It at this point, let's go beyond the labels we have for these emotions. Labels keep us fixed into a relatively small concept, and in fact there are wide differences between two people for the same experience of an emotion. If looked at deeply, there is a fullness within every emotion that most people do not even glimpse. In fact, each emotion is not a limited experience - it's an entire spectrum, much like the light that comes to us from the sun. And like light, there are even huge swaths of the spectrum that we cannot even see. In fact what we know of as pain, for instance, is but a small area of the spectrum available of this one basic experience, but a small part of the expansive range open to us.
To go into more detail, let us now take a look at pain. To use the analogy of the body, pain serves a very useful purpose. It lets us know when there is something important that we need to focus on. If we are being stabbed by a sharp needle, for example, it is good to take immediate action to remove the needle from our body. Sometimes the pain is more chronic and speaks of long-term actions necessary to create a healthier environment in the complex system that is our body. So to put it simply, pain is a good thing. However, if we think of pain only as an enemy, and therefore do not listen to it, it is quite possible that the symptoms will grow exponentially larger until we reach the point where we see nothing but the pain. It is not pain that is the problem, only our experience of it and our reaction to it.
The inward experience of emotional pain is similar. It serves a very useful function - it lets us know what needs to be listened to and transformed. When fully allowed, this can be a truly transcendant experience. In most cases we see, of course, it's misery, but to give a wider picture of what pain can look like, it is useful to think of it again as a spectrum. Here's a table showing a range:
..> ..> ..>
..> ..> ..>
Blocking
A complete void.
Overwhelmed with pain; wishing death.
Alone; lost in pain, blaming others.
Bonding with others through sharing pain.
Recognizing pain as an impetus to start caring for self.
Fully listening to pain to help transformation.
Allowing
Transcendence. ..>..>..>
..>..>..>

All of these come from the same basic internal energy, that which we label "pain". In this one emotion, there is a universe of difference in the experience. And yet the experiences are intricately intertwined; in each moment of meeting pain there can be an instant shift into another mode of experience. The only difference between the states listed above is the degree of allowing we have for the pain - which is the degree we make pain our friend, becoming one with it. Being completely in the present moment, in an ever-fulfilling process of allowing, opens us to the entire range. Resisting the experience will tend to move us to the more blocking side of the spectrum. Normally we sway back and forth a fair bit, even for minor pains!
Both ends of the spectrum are of course connected. Numerous accounts, such as Eckhart Tolle, exist of completely giving up in the pain of existing, surrendering to "the void", and then dramatically shifting to an ecstatic experience of transcendence.
How does this then relate to love? Most people think of love as an emotion. If this were so, it would limit Love. Love itself is not an emotion. Love is the entire spectrum. Think then, that pain is not seperate from it; pain is part of that vast spectrum. Love is a complete allowing of everything. It includes pain, joy, anger, longing, connections with others, and all human experience. Love in some way can be likened to the space through which light can pass. It is Love itself that provides the allowing that enables pain to be the complete blessing that it can be, if it is surrendered to. If you think to a time where you sat in front of someone you knew loved you, it was at a time when everything in you was welcomed. This included all your emotions, all your thoughts, all your desires; it was all invited and allowed. Why then should loving ourselves be any different? Or other forms of Love? Poets certainly have it right when they talk of the sky loving the earth.
This of course in no way minimizes the paralysing agony that pain can be, or is it in any way saying people are "responsible for their pain". It takes experience and wisdom to trust the process of allowing and surrendering to an experience, and most people need much support to do this. That's what friends are for, after all. Still, I hope by looking at pain this has given a glimpse of possibilities that exist in every moment, inside every emotion

I went to the cross

said to the lord, "I don't understand,I needed your help-Your loving hand.My heart was broken, my soul in despair...I went to the cross but you wern't there.
"I was so weary, my hope all but gone, beginning to wonder why life should go on.I took all the burdens you said you would bear...I went to the cross, but you wern't there.
Then, in the stillness, I heard the lord say "I'm right by your side, and I'll never stray.I'm always faithful, there's no need to fear, I'm all you need and I'm always here.
"I went to the cross, but I didn't stay... I died for your sins, but on the third day, I arose from the grave, as I said I would do. I'm not on the cross-I'm forever with you."

Who Joseph and Moses really were

Ok this is gonna be really long and complicated-just thought I'd better warn you first.
Two of the most intriguing old testament characters are Joseph and Moses.Each played an important role in the formation of the hebrew nation and both have historical identities that can be examined quite independently of the bible.Genesis 41:39-43 tells how Joseph was made Governor of Egypt:
"And pharaoh said unto Joseph...Thou shalt be over my house and according unto thy word shall all my people be ruled:only in the throne will I be greater than thou...and he made him ruler over all the land of egypt."
Referring to Moses, Exodus 11:3 informs us similarly that:
"Moses was very great in the land of Egypt, in the sight of the pharaoh's servants, and in the sight of the people."
Yet for all this status and prominence,neither Jesus nor Moses appear in any Egyptian record under their given biblical names.
The annals of Ramesses II (c.1304-1237 BC) specify that semitic people were settled in the land of Goshen and it is further explained that they went there from Canaan for want of food.But why should Ramesses' scribes mention this nile delta settlement of Goshen?According to standard bible chronology,the hebrews went to Egypt some three centuries before the time of Ramesses and made their exodus in about 1491 BC,long before he came to the throne.So,by virtue of this first-hand scribal record,the standard bible chronology as generally promoted is seen to be incorrect.
It is traditionally presumed that Joseph was sold into slavery in Egypt in the 1720s BC and was made Governor by the pharaoh a decade or so later.Afterwards, his father Jacob (whose name was changed to Israel) and seventy family members followed him into Goshen to escape the famine in Canaan.Notwithstanding this,Genesis 47:11, Exodus 1:11 and Numbers 33:30 all refer to " the land of Ramesses' (Egyptian: 'the house of Ramesses')-but this was a complex of grain storehouses built by the Israelites for Ramesses II in Goshen some 300 years after they were supposedly there!
It transpires, therefore, that the alternative Jewish Reckoning is more accurate than the Standard Chronology: Joseph was in Egypt not in the early 18th century BC,but in the early 15th century BC.There he was appointed Chief Minister to Tuthmosis IV (c.1413-1405 BC). To the Egyptians, however, Joseph(Yusef the Vizier) was known as Yuya and his story is particularly revealing-not just in relation to the biblical account of Joseph,but also in respect of Moses.The cairo-born historian and linguist Ahmed Osman has made an in-depth study of these personalities in their contemporary Egyptian environment and his findings are of great signifigance.
When pharaoh Tuthmosis died,his son married his sibling sister Sitamun (as was the pharaonic tradition) so that he could inherit the throne as Pharaoh Amenhotep II.Shortly afterwards he also married Tiye,daughter of the chief minister (Joseph/Yuya). It was decreed,however,that no son born to Tiye could inherit the throne and because of the overall length of her father Joseph's governorship,there was a general fear that the Israelites were gaining too much power in Egypt.So when Tiye became pregnant,the edict was given that her child should be killed at birth if a son.Tiye's israelite relatives lived at Goshen and she owned a summer palace a little upstream at Zarw,where she went to have her baby.She did indeed bear a son,,but the royal midwives conspired with Tiye to float the child downstream in a reed basket to the house of his father's half-brother Levi.
The boy, Aminadab (born c.1394 BC), was duly educated in the eastern delta country by the Egyptian priests of Ra.Then,in his teenage years he went to live at Thebes.By that time,his mother had acquired more influence that the senior queen,Sitamun,who had never born a son and heir to the pharaoh,only a daughter who was called Nefertiti.In thebes,Aminadab could not accept the Egyptian deities with their myriad idols and so he introduced the notion of Aten,an omnipotent god who had no image.Aten was thus akin to the hebrews' Adon (a title borrowed from the phoenician and meaning 'lord') in line with Israelite teachings.At that time Aminadab (The hebrew equivalent of Amenhotep:'Amun is please') changed his name to Akhenaten,meaing servant of Aten.
Pharaoh Amenhotep then suffered a period of ill-health and,since there was no direct male heir to the royal house,Akhenaton married his half-sister Nefertiti in order to rule as co-regent during this difficult time.In due course,however,when Amenhotep III died,Akhenaton was able to succeed as Pharaoh,gaining the official style of Amenhotep IV.He and Nefertiti had six daughters and a son called Tutankhaten.
Pharaoh Akhenaton closed all the temples of the Egyptian gods and built new temples to Aten.He also ran a household that was distinctly domestic-quite different from the kingly norm in ancient Egypt.On many fronts he became unpopular,particularly with the priests of the former national deity Amun(or Amen) and of the sun God Ra(or Re),as a result of which plots against his life proliferated.Loud were the threats of armed insurrection if he did not allow the traditional gods to be worshipped alongside the faceless Aten.But Akhenaten refused and was eventually forced to abdicate in short-term favour of his cousin Smenkhkare,who was succeeded by Akhenaton's son Tutankhatan.On taking the throne at the age of about eleven,however,Tutankhaten was obliged to change his name to Tutankhamen,but he only lived for a further nine or ten years,meeting his death while still comparatively young.
Akneaten,meanwhile,was banished from Egypt.He fled with some retainers to the remot safety of Sinai,taking with him his royal sceptre topped with a brass serpent.To his supporters he remained very much the rightful monarch(the heir to the throne from which he had been ousted)and he was still regarded to them as the Mose,Meses or Mosis,meaning 'heir' or 'born of'-as in Tuthmosis(Born of Tuth) and Ramesses(Fashioned of Ra).
Evidence from Egypt indicated that Moses(Akhenaten) led his people from Pi-Ramesses(Near modern Kantra)southward,through Sinai,towards Lake Timash.This was extremely marshy territory and,although it was manageable on foot with some difficulty,any pursuing horses or chariots would have floundered disastrously.
Among the retainers who fled with Moses were the families of Jacob-Israel:The Israelites.Then,at the instigation of their leader,they constructed the tabernacle and the Ark of the Covenant at the foot of Mount Sinai.Once Moses had died,they began their invasion of the country left by their forefathers so long before,but Canaan(Palestine) had changed considerably in the meantime,having been infiltrated by waves of Philistines and Phoenicians.The records tell of great sea battles and of massive armies marching to war.At length,the Israelites(under their new leader,Joshua)were successful and,once across the Jordan,they took Jericho from the Canaanites,gaining a real foothold in their traditional promised land.
Following Joshua's death,the ensuing period of rule by appointed Judges was a catalogue of disaster until the disparate Hebrew and Israelite tribes united under their first king,Saul,in about 1048 BC.Eventually,however, with the conquest of Canaan as complete as possible,David of Bethlehem married Saul's daughter to become King of Judah(corresponding to half the palestinian territory)in around 1008 BC.Subsequently,he also acquired Israel(the balence of the territory) to become overall King of the Jews.

Gnosis in popular media-Gnosis is everywhere!!!

Ok so most people have no idea what Gnosticism is or find it hard to get into so here is a list of popular Gnostic films,books,games,music etc to get you going and to make you relaize just how big Gnosticism really is.IUf you have any Gnostic media that is not on here then please tell me about it and I'll put it up.These are just a few examples of Gnosticism being in the media.
Gnostic films:
1.The matrix 1,2 and 3.Basically it's the whole idea that this world isn't real and we are all bound here in a "dream" until we realize what this world is.There are lots of Gnostic references here including "Follow the white rabbit","Wake up Neo" and "Will you take the blue pill or the red pill?"Also the part where Mr Anderson changes to Neo and becomes a different person(has Gnosis)once he realizes what he really is.These films are full of Gnosis.
2.Donnie Darko.The hallucinations Donnie has,the philosophy of time travel,the bit about Roberta sparrow denouncing the church and writing the book on the philiosophy of time travel,donnie questioning love and fear and the world around him,the end of the world bit,the madworld song,the bit at the end where everyone is crying,donnie's rebellion against the material world etc.It's a hard film to understand but when you do it's worth it.
3.Vanilla sky.The fact that david's soul mate is called sofia and that gnostics seeks the goddess sophia as a soul mate,when david wears the mask(representing that everyone wears a mask and is not real),david's hallucinations,the man who says he has the power to "control the world",the part where david is not sure whether sofia is juliana or sofia(representing the dualism inside of us),the life is but a dream bit,the lucid dream bit(reincarnation),and the ending where david has realized about the lucid dream bit and wakes up and meets sofia(representing finding gnosis and going back to the true god).
4.Bladerunner.It's based on a book by Philip K dick who was a well-known Gnostic,the story is about artificial humans and there is a very important question asked as to whether they have souls,the religious symbolism,the paranoia about certain people being in control and having too much power,the fact that the character Deckard thinks hes human when really hes a robot(just like us today),the dreaming of the unicorn(symbolising having gnosis/awakaning).
5.The 13th floor.The creator learning that he too is created,the fact that there are a number of parallel worlds existing alongside each other,the virtual worlds/simulations,the simulated bodies losong themselves as the player takes over(like our position today),the fact that the users can be transferred back to the real world if they remember who they are(like us again),the whole "question reality" thing,the letter syaing the world isn't real,the bit where part of david dies but part of him lives on etc.
6.Tron.The tagline stated:"A world inside the computer where man has never been before.Never before now.",the symbolism,when the creation goes haywire, it's up to the creator to incarnate inside and put things right,Flynn when he is convinced he is dreaming,the whole digital world etc.
7.Fight club.The fact that the movie is about the main guy being two people but not knowing until the end,the bit where he trys to kill himself to kill Tyson(to me I see Tyson as the mortal man he must kill and who he thinks he is as the Gnostic man),after shooting himself the main guy awakes in a mental instiution thinking he is in heaven,and right at the end tyler is expected to come back(reincarnation in the gnostic form),the whole "God's middle children" thing which Tyler says.
8.A.I.(Artificial intelligence).Will the blue fairy(Sophia)make Pinocchio a real boy?,the android children with the ability to love,the rivalry between David and Martin(the rivalry between our human and Gnostic selves),the resurrection process,the search for the blue fairy to make david real(the search for wisdom/Gnosis to make us real).
9.Dark city.What if you were the only one awake?,the things that appear to be wrong with the world in the film,time memory and identity behaving in odd ways,murdoch losing and then discovering his memory,etc.
Gnostic music
1.Tori Amos.Here are a number of her songs that have Gnosticism in them although some are just particualrly religious ones: Devils and Gods,Velvet Revolution,Pancake,The beekeeper,Original sinsuality,Mary,Mary's of the sea,God,Father Lucifer,Muhammad my friend,Crucify,Angels,Take to the sky,Mother Revolution.
2.The waterboy's-The christ in you.
3.Dead can dance-Enigma of the absolute
4.Jethro tull-Skating Away On The Thin Ice Of The New Day
5.Necrostellar-Lucifer suddenly rising
6.Marilyn Manson-Loads of his songs have Gnostic bents particularly: The fight song,Disposable teens,Target audience(Narcissus Narcosis),In the shadow of the valley of death etc.

Know thyself:Science of mind

Know thyself:Science of mind Current mood: cold
How do you know yourself?What does this mean?How could you not know yourself? I know what my favorite foods are, my favorite colors, how I like my eggs cooked in the morning, and what I do for fun. So the question begs: What do you mean, 'know thyself?'This isn't quite as crazy as it may seem, the command here is not to know what you prefer about life, but to know your purpose in life, or to know at your core what you are in relation to the world. It has many levels of meaning. You can go your entire life being completely indulged in things you like to do, eat, smell, touch, taste, and see, but these are only outside qualities of what you know. To truly know yourself, you have to think of the big picture. Think of the universe, and what you are in relation to everything in it. What does such a small person, a tiny life form like you, have to do with the entire universe? What is your purpose?This is, at the heart of it, the real question. To know yourself is to know your purpose for being. It's like a drop of water understanding it's purpose in the ocean. And what is that purpose?Well, with risk of making things sound way too easy, the purpose of a drop of water in an ocean is that the ocean would be one less drop without it. The drop contributes to the whole. It makes the entirety complete. Therefore, your ultimate purpose is to make the entirety of creation complete. And what better way to do that than to become YOU?Sounds stupid at first, doesn't it? Think about it. Let's take a theological look at this just one second. Taking away from any dogmatic creed of any one religion, let's say you believe in God, or even Gods. Erase whatever name you have imprinted in your head for this "Divinity," and just accept that there is something there. What does it look like in your mind? Is it a person? Is it a man? Maybe it's a woman?Now, whatever you just thought about, erase that image completely. Let's start from scratch. Let's just assume, for the time being, that God is harder for us to understand than previously thought. Think of this: God is of no image, no name, no being, no concept, no form, both there and not; transcendent, if you will. Any concept you have of God - no matter how right it may or may not be - isn't anywhere close to the true Divine. It's like trying to draw a picture for the blind. We are the blind.Don't put a form around it, as this makes limitations. Don't put a name to it, as this defines forethought. For the time being, we will simply refer to it as the Divine. This Ultimate Divine, Creator of all thought, Beginner of the beginning, is the Ultimate Reality. And within this Reality, lies THIS reality. Since this reality is within the Ultimate Reality, or the Divine, everyone and everything is apart of it. Each galaxy, every star, every planet, every atom – nothing exists outside of the Divine. It is a thought, held together by the will of the Divine. On a more personal level, that means you are a part of that Divine. Every cell, nerve, vein, and thought of yours is apart of this Divine. Without you, the Divine would be less than it is. You're a drop of water in an ocean.Hopefully, that's not too much to take in all at one time. Of course, that might be oversimplifying reality as well. Plenty of questions arise out of the thought process of thinking that we are not separate from the Divine, but actually apart of it. In this thinking, one might assume, every time something or someone dies, a piece of the Divine dies. If we all are apart of the Divine, and without us the Divine would be that much less, then what happens when one of the many living things in this reality dies?Most science classes will tell you that energy never stops, it simply transfers from one thing to another. In this scenario, picture yourself as a big ball of energy. It shouldn't be too hard to imagine. The human brain has more electrical currents in the form of impulses going through it each minute than any device you can think of. For every sensation there is another current of electricity sent to the brain. Every thought is accompanied by a message sent all over the body. When you start to walk, you don't think to yourself "now I'm going to walk," you simply do it. And in that split second, millions of signals get sent through the body from the brain to the muscles to the nerves and whatnot, and then . . . the miracle that is "walking" ensues. The obvious nature of the body is to serve as a tool for us to live with. The body is governed by these impulses and signals, and has no control over them. The body does not decide when to walk, we TELL it to. SO – if the body is not the source of the energy, then what is?Man has always believed there is something that drives the body. Beyond all physical aspects, there is something "within" that is the actual source of all this life and movement. It has been called many different things, but we will refer to this in particular as the Spirit. From this Spirit comes this seemingly unending supply of energy. It is the source of all life in each person. It is this Spirit within us that transfers from one thing to another, that never remains static. Even though the body might die, or be destroyed, the source of energy remains constant. Energy does not die. And neither does the Spirit.This Spirit, as complex as it may be, is at the very core of everything, the most ultimate "you" that you can be. When you say, "I am," that's the part of you that you refer to. This Spirit within you is the REAL you, not your body. Even your sub-conscience realizes this. Notice in everyday speech, that you might say "my head hurts" or "my hand is strong" or even "I've got long legs." This sub-conscience mind of yours (which is the Spirit/Soul) is telling you that you are not the body in which you reside. You are saying that your arm, head, hand, or leg belongs to you, not that it IS you. In saying this, you have confirmed yourself that you are a being far more complex than just a body.It is to this end that we must ask ourselves: who are we?To know the answer to this is to have Gnosis

ग्नोस्तिक प्स्य्चोलोग्य

Gnostic Psychology
When one knows the how and the why of the mind, when one knows the different functionalisms of the mind, then one can control it. Thus, the mind becomes a useful and perfect instrument through which we can work for the benefit of humanity. -Samael Aun Weor, The Revolution of the Dialectic
The Esoteric Psychology of Religion and Myth
Esoteric:"Designed for, and understood by, the specially initiated alone; not communicated, or not intelligible, to the general body of followers; private; interior. Opposed to exoteric." Source: Webster's Revised Unabridged Dictionary.Psychology:from Greek psyche (pskhe) meaning "soul," and Logos, the "principle governing the cosmos," the Word, God. True psychology is "the knowledge of the relationship of the soul with God." Esoteric Psychology is the highest and most potent level of that knowledge, which is "private" and "interior" and is entered into in levels, according to the internal, initiatic process of the seeker.
What is the source of all misery? Deluded perception... based on ignorance of our true nature... Since the very heart of ignorance is the innate grasping at an "I," anyone who wishes to attain full liberation from all forms of suffering should strive to abandon this subtle, inborn ego-grasping... - Tsong KhapaPsychology is a science that has been studied since the dawn of humanity. Psychology is not simply the territory of modern psychiatrists and psychologists; the study and development of Psyche (Greek for "soul") is the essential root of every mystical and religious tradition in the world.In ancient times, for example, the Shamans (mystics who also served as doctors) understood that the body/mind, psyche (soul), and spirit were the principles to be studied regarding the composition of the human nature. Therefore, in dealing with disease, they would treat not only those symptoms and behaviors that can be seen easily, but also those which cannot be seen with the physical senses. Thus, psychology deals with two types of observable phenomena: external (being able to be perceived with the five senses: circumstances and events) and internal (that which is not observable with the five senses: states of consciousness).To deal with phenomena of an "unseen" or hidden nature is something that one constantly deals with in psychology and also in mysticism, religion, and occultism (occult means "hidden"). But these "unseen" phenomena have proven inaccessible to modern psychologists and scientists, in part because they refuse to study the wisdom of the ancient religions, discarding it all as "myth" and "superstition." Instead, they persist in inventing new theories, which leaves them in the unfortunate position of contradicting themselves with each new theory or concept. Of course, our modern psychological "experts" are often the first to admit that they are nowhere near solving the massive psychological problems that burden humanity.The "hidden" phenomena that truly drive the visible manifestations of human behavior have remained out of the reach of scientists and theorizers because such phenomena are beyond the physical senses. Only those who know how to utilize the other senses of the human being can perceive the realities beyond the five primary senses. Therefore, the modern scientists and doctors are working "blind," a fact that many of them readily admit. This is because they lack understanding regarding the most important aspect of psychology: consciousness. Where does it come from? What is its function? How can one cultivate and develop it? These are some of the most important questions that pertain to the study of psychology, and in modern psychology they remain unanswered.Consciousness is divine intelligence within the human. It is universal and comes from God, the Buddha nature, the Intimate, the Lord God of Truth Within. This is the factor upon which all of the unsolved equations of "modern" psychology rests. In studying the techniques given and synthesized by the Venerable Master Samael Aun Weor, we can learn the way our consciousness has been conditioned and even programmed into a type of psychological somnambulism.With knowledge that is acquired when one works directly with the consciousness, esoteric (hidden) knowledge is cultivated. It is hidden to those who refuse to utilize the proper tools. The Gnostic psychologist who works to cultivate esoteric knowledge (relating to the mysteries of life, death, and nature) directly and tangibly perceives the true nature of the human mind, heart and psyche (soul).Esoteric psychology, as studied in the light of Universal Gnosticism, can be found in all of the scriptures of the ancient religions. One cannot deny that the Old and New Testaments, for example, teach an in-depth doctrine of psychology. These teachings are taught in parables or stories, often with obscure symbols that are understood only to those who "Know" (Gnostics, or in other words those who have been initiated into the hidden knowledge). This is why we compliment the study of psychology with Alchemy and Kabbalah. Alchemy, the "chemistry of God," is the scientific and chemical basis of inner transformation. Kabbalah, related to the ancient teaching of the Tree of Life, is the mathematic basis of inner transformation. When these forces are combined with meditation, a complete system of deep and penetrating wisdom is revealed; the symbols and parables are revealed in their original and pervasive depths. Through the combination of these sciences, a synthesis is formed which reveals in turn the synthetic ground from which all true inner wisdom arises. Like Kabbalah and Alchemy, psychology is an occult (hidden) science, because once applied, it reveals that which was once hidden in the psyche, and one can experience the miracles of the saints.From this perspective we can understand why all the world's great religions and mystical traditions contain the same symbols, icons and messages. It is because they are all derived of the same source, and that source is the source of the human psyche, the source of the worlds, planets, galaxies etc. That primal source is universal, perfect, whole, and complete; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken away.Science is the method of religion. Religion comes from the Latin religare, which means, "to unite." It is the Inner Being that we seek to unite with. That which separates us from the Inner Being is the selfish desires that condition the consciousness into instinctive, mechanical impulses. These desires are the multiplicity of "egos" or "psychological I's" that we carry within. These are the unseen causes of the diseases that exist in humanity (diseases of the mind, heart and body). It is the goal of Gnostic Psychology to comprehend and eliminate the egos, so that we can liberate the consciousness and finally return to the Divine Principle through an ancient, systematic and practical technique.We study psychology to learn how to bring about practical change in our lives. It teaches how to bring about health through balance. If we observe the common level of being of humanity, we would see that humanity is not completely healthy. The group is only the sum total of the individuals. Therefore we as individuals need a revolution, in ourselves, here and now. To assist humanity, we must learn how to change ourselves.

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